Anger/Aggression?

heshesmom · 02-28-2009, 10:12 AM

Has anyone else suffered from this? My mood goes from happy to angry from one minute to the next. I throw things, yell, and overreact to just about everything. My husband is at a breaking point with me, and I can't blame him. I feel like I want to be another person some days. I wish that I was normal. I don't understand any of this. Why am I like this? I hate myself and feel so ashamed. Does anyone else feel like this or am I the only one? I really hope that I am not alone in this or I am really going to be worried, My insecurities, depression, and anger are ruining my marriage and I don't know where to turn. I don't want to say suicidal but I can't help but think it sometimes, It would be so much easier than living like this day to day. And to think I want to have a baby, what was I thinking? What child deserves a mother like me? One who can't control herself. I feel so alone with no one to talk to or who can truly understand how I feel. You can try to explain it until you are blue in the face and somehow its just not enough. It doesn't seem to do justice to how little I think of myself at this moment.

Ashley

Bethann · 03-01-2009, 12:05 AM

Do you have a GP or an Ob-Gyn? Call them, tell them you need to be seen ASAP, and tell them what you've told us and ask for them for a reference to a mental health care provider. Lots of us deal with depression and anxiety, and there are different causes and different treatments--the important thing is to start the process to getting help.

Check back in and let us know how you're doing, okay? We really do care about you.

heshesmom · 03-01-2009, 02:46 AM

I have been seeing someone and they are the ones who prescribed the celexa. You know the only short term fix I have is to sit in the shower and just cry. And that helps for the time I am in there. I am supposed to be starting clomid as soon as my af gets here. I really am contemplating not doing that. I wonder if all of this is part of the withdrawl from the celexa? It has to get better right? There is such a back story with me and my estranged family that has a lot to do with this. My husband thinks it would be good if I contacted my dad next week. I haven't spoken to anyone in about a year. So this is a big thing for me. If your family doesn't make you feel welcome, puts you down for who you are and what you look like, and doesn't agree with anything about you or your life, is it a good thing to have a relationship with any of them? Does anyone out there know how this feels? There has to be someone. I was tired of feeling like I wasn't good enough, skinny enough, made enough money, or did anything right with my life. I felt like a constant disappointment to them, but is that a better situation than I am feeling now? Its hard to make that choice, either way I feel like a disappointment to someone somehow. I feel like my husband deserves better than someone like me. He deserves someone to be happy with who they are, someone who doesn't feel like me. He shouldn't have to console me all the time. What kind of wife needs that? Sorry about the long story but sometimes it helps to write it out.

Ashley