Unfortunately, the bean stopped growing at 6 weeks and the heartbeat just keeps slowing down more. It was 79 2 Fridays ago and this past Friday it was down to 68.
I've stopped my progesterone suppositories and am waiting this weekend to see if I'll start bleeding. I'll get another beta done on Tuesday if I haven't, and if it's gone down then I will be a candiate for a D&C if I want one. If it still continues to go up (which I suspect it may) then I still have to wait.
I'm doing ok though. I was preparing for this over the last few weeks. I feel gypped that I'll never have a worry free time in a pregnancy. I had no spotting or bleeding this time and everything seemed fine.
On the other hand, I feel blessed that I'm not in New Orleans or in the middle of a natural disaster. I'm healthy, my family is healthy, and we are doing fine in the economy.
I will say that (in my opinion) it's easier when you lose the baby earlier than later. I guess I always suspected it and it sucks either way, but it really is a little easier when you don't have to deliver and give birth to an actual deceased baby. Not that I'm not miscarrying a "baby" but there's no brain or sensitivity to pain or anything like that at this stage. The only possible pain is to me.... and that's ok.
So far, no pain.
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TAC placed 6/28/07 at University of Chicago.
Moving on to IVF after a year of infertility and 3 Femara cycles. Lupron started on 7/27.
Noelle - my little baby, was only with us for 17 weeks and 5 days, February 7, 2005
2nd loss - my little angel, could only stay with us for a little while, 8 weeks, August 3, 2005
Hoping to remain positive, always...
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Julianne, I'm so sorry you're going through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
__________________ Adrianne 31, DH 44 - married 6/01 - 2 DSDs (13 & 15)
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Julianne - I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I was really pulling for you and hoping that things would go well for you. If there's anything I can do of if you just need to talk feel free to PM me. You're in my thoughts and prayers!
__________________ 11 miscarriages - first one July 1997 last one May 2008.
I am starting over. I have been working on my PCOS since 2002 - but never tried to take care of me for me (I was always focused on trying to have a baby). I have given up that dream and am focusing on me now.
So far all I can do is wait. I hope things go quickly so that I can TTC again. 2005 has been a bad year so far and I'm sure I won't be pregnant before the end of the year, but that's fine with me.
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TAC placed 6/28/07 at University of Chicago.
Moving on to IVF after a year of infertility and 3 Femara cycles. Lupron started on 7/27.
It sure has been a bad year for you!
I'm so sorry, Jules. You've suffered enough already, and now the waiting starts... I hope it's quicker than you think.
Loads of Hugs,
Sheri
__________________ Metformin 1500mg, Yasmin, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs
First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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{{{HUGS}}} Jules, I am so sorry you are having to go through this.
__________________ Janet (31) DH (41) ttc 7 years
Miscarriage 1/19/1999 at 10 weeks
Met ER 2000 mg daily HSG to be scheduled next cycle after af
Waiting on dh's SA results
Expecting to start Clomid after test results are in
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Julianne-I love your name, it was a top pick name for one of our twins.
I am so sorry that you are loosing your baby. It doesn't make sense. I know you had to battle with the Dr to get your progesterone. My Dr said that he was going to add progesterone next time. My prayers go out to you and your baby. HUGS to you.
ps thanks for the rainbow, you are a sweetie.
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Tested positive for antiphospholipid antibodies, Heparin/Aspirin therapy for next pregnancy
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Another Loss For Me 
Julianne - I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I was really pulling for you and hoping that things would go well for you. If there's anything I can do of if you just need to talk feel free to PM me. You're in my thoughts and prayers!
