Sabbatath

The Mirror

Mirror mirror on the wall
You strike the harshest blow of all
Gazing into my reflection
Seeing flaws and not perfection
Wondering to my dismay
How did it come to be this way?
Once upon a lifetime this was not so
I loved myself and did not know
How I would be judged on for my looks
Not my caring nature or lust for books
The beauty inside me should be what matters
Not the outside torn to tatters
I look at me and want to smash
This mirror with one hellacious crash
But would that fix my tortured soul?
Broken glass, but myself still not whole
One last glance, but what is this here?
Down my face, slides a lonely tear
Followed by a thousand more
I turn my back on me and slam the door.
You wonder how this tale will be completed
If I rejoice in triumph, or retreat, defeated
The answer will come in time to me
Then my beauty will shine for all to see.


I wrote this last year. I was so tired of looking at my acne scarred face and shaving my facial hair and being overweight I just wanted to die, or scream, or destroy something! I wrote this instead, hehe.

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Julia
DX PCOS, IR and Glucose Intolerant and Type 2 Diabetes 11/13/02
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Best Boyfriend Ever- Leon
DS Tim 23 and DD Jessi 21
1 cat, Badger

"The World is full of Kings and Queens who blind your eyes and steal your dreams....It's Heaven and Hell! ~Black Sabbath~

jojo24

that was great and sooooooo true

keep smiling at that reflection though cause one day that mirror will be good to us all

lots of love jo x x x x x

Sabbatath

Thank you Jo, I hope you are right about those nasty mirrors doing right by us someday! !

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Julia
DX PCOS, IR and Glucose Intolerant and Type 2 Diabetes 11/13/02
GlucophageXR 500
Prozac
Nexium
Norvasc


Best Boyfriend Ever- Leon
DS Tim 23 and DD Jessi 21
1 cat, Badger

"The World is full of Kings and Queens who blind your eyes and steal your dreams....It's Heaven and Hell! ~Black Sabbath~

badgirlcyster

I like these poems about mirrors. It's hard to look at something that you feel like is betraying you. I use to be a size 6 and now I'm a size 16-18 in a matter of 2 years so I often have times I want to throw something at the mirror and scream. Thanks for sharing the poem.

justdiagnosed

Thanks so much for sharing! I loved it, keep em coming!

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~Tonya
22 years old
Newly Single (grrr)
Dx March 7, 2002 Symptoms since 13...5'5", 240lbs, facial & body hair, almost constant pelvic pains,mood swings, well, cysters, u know...
Glucophage 500mg po bid
Nursing Assistant in a Psych Ward
'For many moons she searched to find herself, only to find that life isnt a process of discovery, but one of creation.'

Aurora411

You must be in my head because that's exactly how I feel...it's how we all feel. Thank you for being so creatively genius!

~Leslie~

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Leslie (20) & Trevor (19)
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Beauty is everywhere! Celebrate being alive!

DebbieCA

I can't begin to explain how many times I have felt that way and ended up crying in the arms of my dear, helpless husband; or muffling pillow. Luckily we are able to vent through poetry and other means. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings!