CGullion

Does anyone ever feel like they are on a long emotional train ride and your ready to get off?? I feel like I am on this train 24/7.

I am always emotional. I am now learning that some of it has to do with PCOS. I've already been diagnosed as bipolor and manic depressive. I have horrible mood swings and anxiety and irritability.

One minute I can be happy as can be and the next I am so angry that I'm yelling at my DH and kids. Then a lil while later I am fine again. then I feel horrible for yelling and while I am fine they are all still mad and pouting.

Lately I am like this more often. I'm dealing with a lot in my life right now. I just lost my Mom in Jan. Found out the Dad that raised me insn't my bio dad. It's so much to deal with and I feel like I am dealing with it all on my own!!

I'm going insane! Some days I have horrible thoughts and the only thing keeping me from doing them is the love I have for my kids.

Am I crazy? Today is one of my train days.

Ok,I've rambled enough. Thanks for listening!

annonymous

I know exactly what you mean. I'm having the same problems. Finally made an appt with a psychiatrist and was able to get on some meds for bipolar. They gave me lamictal, still unsure if it's helping or not! Took myself off prozac a few months back after believing that it caused me to go on a manic destruction spree. Anyhow, I would def. see about getting some meds and also finding a good counselor to talk to. Just talking about it may ease some of your anguish, esp after going through deaths in the family and dealing with the info about your father. That would be hard on anyone and I think it's even harder for ppl like us who have depression/bipolar. I'm a mom too and I felt it just wasn't fair for my kids and hubby to have to constantly deal with my tirades and just lack of emotical stabililty. So I'm taking the one of many steps to get myself in check. I'm here if you need to talk