Anyone else have an ectopic pregnancy?

Angela18 · 03-10-2005, 05:10 AM

I haven't read any where of any cysters who have gone through an ectopic. With any m/c there is the difficulty of healing emotionally. I had a ruptured ectopic on Feb 14, 2005 and now I am dealing with the physical healing also. It's almost a delayed emotional healing, b/c the physical came on so fast. Looking for any cyster that has recovered from an ectopic and been able to move on, someone to talk to. All my cysters are great but anyone in the same boat?

saluki_fan · 03-10-2005, 12:00 PM

Angela18, I am not in the same boat. I've had losses, but not ectopic. I would just like to say how sorry I am for your loss.

(((hugs)))

Meghan

dearheart · 03-10-2005, 02:30 PM

Hello Angela,

I am so sorry for your loss. I have experienced an ectopic pregnancy in my right tube. This is my story...

After a year of trying and with the help of some Clomid we got our BFP. 2 weeks after that I started bleeding. I went to my general Dr. and he said I was still pg and my cervix was closed. I told him about some pain on my right side... he didn't pay any heed. Sent me home to bed rest. I kept bleeding.... for two more weeks. My Dr kept looking at the bloodwork and said I was pg. I finally asked to see a OB/GYN because of the pain and the bleeding. Before I could get in to see him the bleeding got much worse so I went to the hospital. For 7 hours they did ultrasounds and blood tests , but they couldn't find the baby. They finally determined that I had spontaneuosly miscarried from the tube and the baby was no longer there, but my hormone levels kept going up then down. I had to take a dose of methotrexate to "complete" the miscarriage. It was the hardest decision of my life. But there was no other option.

What my general Dr didn't clue into was that my hcg levels were not doubling, but going up and down... a sign of ectopic, especially with my pain on the right side and my history of endometriosis.

I thank God that I miscarried spontaneuosly, I think it saved my life. My dr would not have given me the proper care... and he didn't!

This was in 1998 so there has been time for healing. God has sealed my heart with His love and I know I will hold our little one in heaven. We ahve since conceived and given birth to a son who is turning three this month! I am so thankful.

If you have any questions or want to chat please PM. I'd love to chat. Take care and ((HUGS))

Mindy

Angela18 · 03-10-2005, 10:06 PM

Mindy - Thanks for the response. It makes me feel better to know that there are cysters who have moved on. Did you do anything to fix the right tube? Mine is closed now, but that told us that I could have it fixed, but there could be an increased chance of another ectopic on that side if there was any scar tissue. I think we might try to just try with the one side. I see you are going to start ttc again, by your siggy. Best of luck to you. Baby dust and stickies!!

dearheart · 03-11-2005, 03:33 AM

Angela, the HSG I had after the ectopic showed that my right tubes was inflamed from the ectopic so there wasn't any suggestion for fixing it. I was told that as soon as I got a BFP I was to have an u/s to make sure the baby was in the womb. And thankfully that's right where he was. I carried to full term.

I just had another hsg done to see how the tube is doing. They had to try three times before they were satsified with whatever they saw. My Dr thought he saw spillage, but has to wait for the radiologist's report. So March 23rd we get all the results.

My Aunt lost one of her tubes through an ectopic pg and went on to conceive another child with just the one side left so it is definitely possible.

How are you doing with the greiving? I know I was really suprised at how intense and how long the grieving lasted. I pray that healing would come to your heart. Blessings on you!

Angela18 · 03-12-2005, 02:48 AM

I am not really sure how I am doing, with the grieving at least. I feel like I am okay, and then something will trigger all these emotions. I am going to a support group, and that has helped alot. It felt good to talk about things. I am working through it slowly, but I am dealing with it.

Did you HSG hurt? I've only had one, and it hurt so bad. When he was actually injecting the dye, I had to tell him to stop. I think I have a fairly high tolerance for pain, but that really hurt. Do they always hurt or is it the person doing it? I know with u/s that's the case.

Thanks for answering all my questions!!!

saluki_fan · 03-12-2005, 12:39 PM

Angela, my HSG hurt so badly that I cried. I took 4 ibuprofen an hour before, like recommended, but those didn't seem to help so much. If I have to do another one, I'm going to request a script for painkillers first.

It was neat to see my insides up on the screen, though!

Angela18 · 03-13-2005, 03:38 AM

Saluki - I know what you mean, I'd rather have them knock me out. They gave me 800mg ibuprofen to start taking 3 days before, that didn't help. I don't want to have to do another one.

~Traci~ · 03-13-2005, 05:59 AM

I just wanted to say how sorry I am & send you some {{{{HUGS}}}} I had a suspected ectopic on my ovary in October (I think it was Oct). I didn't lose anything b/c it was caught in time & wasn't in a tube. If it had been in my tube, odds are I would have lost it.

I know how horrible my emotions were dealing w/ my m/c's, I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through losing a tube

I do know that there are some cysters that have gone on to have normal pgcy's after losing a tube.

{{{{HUGS}}}}
Traci

*DannysMom* · 03-14-2005, 01:18 AM

Hi,

I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss-

I also experienced a similiar loss except I lost my left tube as a result of a rupture..... (see my signature)... We weren't actively trying to conceive at the time... and i was scheduled for a second hsg ...they required a pregnancy test prior to the procedure- to our amazement we learned we were pregnant.

Elation turned to devastation as I noticed bleeding and pain several hours after learning of my pregnancy. I had bled in previous pregnancies but this time I experienced a strange twinge of a constant pain in my lower left quadrant... this pain was like contractions... in the sense that they came constant and it was similiar to a stabbing pain- over the course of the week the pain increased. My endo had me in- ran bloodwork on me, transvaginal u/s, and then a level two sono. The news wasn't good. He noted my numbers were "off"... and that there were masses of fluid in my abdomin that troubled him. My husband came from work immediately.. and I was rushed to the hospital.
It all happened so fast and was frightening.

When I came to after the laproscopy- I learned of the photos taken... which showed a bulging in my left tube- which was later confirmed with tests that it was the pregnancy... and that I had massive bleeding in my abdomin... clots everywhere. The pregnancy had settled midway in my tube and it wasn't in a position that it could be removed/scraped from the end... my endo made the decision to remove the tube. And although I was devastated by this loss- I strangely felt lucky that my life was spared... I understood that that this rupture could have taken my life.

My emotions have been all over the place this past year- when I recovered from the procedure I felt so aweful about this being the hand that I was dealt- I had a pity party or two- occasionally got mad that my dr did this- and then went back to feeling so greatful that I am alive and well. So I am all over the place, really.

My reproductive history is one of recurrent miscarriage losses. This felt like a final blow to what has been a very long and unsuccessful process for us. We made a deliberate decision to get as far removed as possible from the whole thing- and so we did. I have to tell you- it was difficult- but one year after this ectopic pregnancy, I sought after a new endocrinologist... and worked up the nerve for a consult. My dh and i intend to gear up for what will be the beginning of our next attempt to achieve a pregnancy. I will hold onto my hope and my faith... and pray that I will know the blessing and the miracle of this baby we are longing for. The loss of my tube is disheartening, but, this is only one more obstacle that we will have to overcome.

I wish you a speedy recovery- body, mind and soul. Your ectopic has hit you with two crushing blows... it is important that you take the time to grieve your pregnancy and grieve your tube. And it is important to get up again and live like you were given a second chance. You too survived a life threatening event.

Best wishes to you and dh. If you ever wish to talk- feel free to pm me.

Hugs,
karen

docrol · 03-26-2005, 10:44 PM

I just noticed your post and wanted to let you know that I had an ectopic in August 2002 and lost my left tube. I ultimately conceived almost exactly a year later (with the help of Clomid, Met, and IUI) and I now have a wonderful 10-month-old baby girl. I had a couple of chemical pregnancies before her, and I was even able to fertilize after O'ng from the left ovary. So, it is certainly possible. I also had a difficult time with the grieving, as I was healing physically. Part of me felt like I wasn't supposed to grieve for some reason. But I finally did and the sadness passed. Take all the time you need. (((HUGS))))
Rollyn

wifeofafirefighter · 03-27-2005, 01:22 AM

Angela,

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard this must be for you. I also went through a tubal pregnancy. I got pregnant when I was young and the guy pretty much abandoned me. When my son was about a year old I met a wonderful guy and we got married. We started trying TTC in July 1995 and in September I started having alot of pain in my side. My mother-in-law thought I had a bladder infection, so I was drinking cranberry juice for a couple of days before I finally went to the Dr. I found out I was pregnant (which was exciting news) but within about two hours the excitement was gone. I had an ultrasound done that showed a mass of cysts and the Dr. sent me to the hospital for an emergency laparoscopy. I was 8 weeks pregnant and had no idea. They removed my right tube and found a softball sized cyst on my left ovary - so they removed all but 1/3 of it. I was devastated. They gave me about a 20% chance of ever conceiving. We so desperately wanted a child together. We tried for about 6 years and were never able to conceive. During the 6 years - I had another laparascopy done for exploratory reasons. I had changed to a new Dr. - one that was much more aggressive than the last one. The new Dr. and I honestly believe that if I'd had a different Dr. earlier on - I might have been able to get pregnant. The 1st one basically sent me on my merry way to TTC on my own for TWO years before trying anything to help. I grieved for the longest time. The 2nd laparoscopy showed severe scarring in the left tube, which left my only option as IVF. Naturally, the day I went back to the Dr. for my check-up after the 2nd laparoscopy it seemed like EVERYONE else was pregnant and happy. Smiling couples holding hands, big tummies everywhere I looked. I sat in the waiting room with tears running down my face. I desperately wanted to run out of there. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I grieved for the longest time. I was so depressed and I gained about 25 pounds during the whole process.It has been almost 10 years now and I have come a long way. Two months after my ectopic - I found out that my little sister was pregnant. We would have been due at the same time. Sometimes my nephew is a reminder to me of the child that we would have had. He has brought such joy to my sister and the rest of the family and I realize that my child just wasn't meant to be for some reason. Needless to say, we spoil that little boy like crazy and his new baby brother as well. My husband loves me and my son very much. He adopted him when he was 5 years old. The three of us are very close and I am so thankful for that. My husband is a wonderful man and he feels as though my son is more his than any biological child could ever be. We have tried to focus on our future and be thankful for our lives. Sometimes we still talk about what it would have been like and what the child might have looked like. Our son is now 15 years old and will be graduating from High School in about 3 years. We are discussing what we will do with ourselves when he heads out to start a life of his own. We have alot to look forward to. Hopefully grandkids later on down the line (we are in no rush for that!) For some reason, this was just God's plan for us.

I do have a friend that had an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured and once her body had time to heal - she conceived with no problems and had a very healthy pregnancy. She now has a beautiful little blonde haired, blue-eyed son!

Keep your chin up sweetie! It will get better. You will grieve and in time you will start to heal. One very important piece of advice - don't mess around with a Dr. that you don't feel is focused on your situation and doing everything you think he/she should be. DO RESEARCH!! Dr.'s seem to be more focused when they think you know what you're talking about!!

I wish you the best of luck!!

Angela18 · 03-27-2005, 02:56 AM

Wifeofafirefigther ~ Thanks for the words of encouragement. Every little bit helps. I am still healing physically, I've gone back to work and realized that I wasn't as healed as I thought. Emotionally I am a roller coaster. But only time can help that.

wifeofafirefighter · 03-28-2005, 12:05 AM

Angela,

No problem!! If you ever need to talk - I'm always here!!

Jen

vegangurl21 · 04-06-2005, 12:19 AM

I'm so sorry to hear about those of you that have had to go through this. I became pregnant in May of 2001, and lost the baby on July 31st, at about 2 months. Things just weren't right with the pregnancy, and the doctor suspected an ectopic pregnancy. But I have extremely mixed feelings about it, and a lot of guilt about some of those feelings. Because, you see, I was only 18 at the time, and became pregnant as the result of being raped by 3 men. So in some ways I'm sort of relieved, but then I won't allow myself to fully feel those emotions because I hate myself for thinking that. But then there's another big part of me, that wants/wanted that baby desperately, no matter what the circumstances were that created him/her. I needed that baby, and I needed it to need and love me, too. I'm coming up on the 4 year anniversary now, and I'm still in severe mourning over my child. Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to heal from this. I just want to hold my baby, kiss their little head, hug him/her in my arms and never let go. I just don't know what to do sometimes, the pain is still so great. I feel like I'm the only one in the world that takes this long to heal from something like this. I feel like a freak sometimes.
Anyway, you are not alone, sweetie. Hang in there.