I am so sick of PCOS. I am so sick of Met. I am so sick of ultrasounds, drugs, bad periods and BFN's. I am sick of feeling like I am a loser. I am sick of spending money on IUI"s and IVF's. AND I am sick of teaching in a school where there are pregnant teenagers.
With that all said, who else feels that iit is unfair for PCOS sufferers? What have we done to deserve all this? I lead a healthy life. Non smoker, social drinker when i was younger, college athlete and now this crap. I did the right thing by getting married, building a house, starting my career and now where am I?
I finally got a BFP last week after SIX freakin years. Only to discover that it was a chemical pregnancy. WHY? No one can tell me! One of my close friends is my OB...he can't even give me an idea. I hate it. I am just sick of it. But how do I give up after getting a BFP?
My brother called THE SAME day to say his wife is PG....so my parents were getting 2 grandkids until three days later. It just sucks.
Sorry for being a downer, but this is my out.
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I'm sorry you are having a hard time...and I know how you feel. I definitely go through days where I just want to scream. I wish I could have the old me back, the thin person I once knew. I hate being tired all of the time.
I am sorry about your m/c. I also had a chemical pregnancy in September. I am fortunate to have a child. He is the love of my life. Don't give up hope. The cycle I conceived my son, the doctor had thought it was a bust. So you never know...and the reason I keep trying is because I know I will regret it if I give up.
Remember to do what's best for you, and what will keep your sanity intact. I wish you luck!
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Overall I have accepted pcos and can look at the bigger picture and realize that there are much worse things that a person can have.
But I do go through moments when I feel like it's not fair....I've actually been feeling that way the last few days. I'm just really sick of being fat and pimply...those are the main things that really bother me. Sometimes I get mad when I look in the mirror and see acne all over my face, even though it's a lot better it still seems unfair that I have to deal with this at all. And I'm tired of having a big fat stomach and feeling ugly. Now I'm also sick of not being able to cope with life and getting overwhelmed by things everybody has to do, like socializing or getting through the day at work...I blame pcos for the anxiety and depression too.
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I sometimes sit here and wonder how different I would be if I didn't have this. Would I be thinner? Would all that exercise I do have actually made a difference on my body? Would I have been able to eat the way I did/do and not be overweight???
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I completely agree!It is so unfair, I have babysat kids all my life, and now all my friends are having them..I love kids and can't wait to have my own, and am having a hard time with the thought that I may never have that experience. I got married to a man with 2 kids and that broke my heart everyday, I am now divorced and have a wonerful boyfriend who I plan to marry in the near future. I worry that we will never have that family life that I so hope to have with him. So no you aren't the only one who is sick and tired of PCOS!
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sorry you are having a hard time, I hope that you are feeling better. everyone always says it'll get better, so I won't do that to you.
but just know that I am thinking about you
It's not fair, but as a pp stated things could be a lot worse...Your m/c is bittersweet...Bitter because you lost your child, but sweet because you now KNOW you CAN get pregnant *hugs*
I've pretty much cried for the past week. Cried because of having PCOS. Cried for struggling to get pregnant. Cried for gaining weight and not being able to lose it. Cried because maybe I feel I shouldn't have kids. If my mom passed PCOS to me, I will pass it on to my children, would I want to do something so bad? I cried because the chance of getting pregnant is so small... that my hubby-to-be will never have a son or daughter. I cried because it's just so damn frustrating.
I'm sick of it too. I am like Sandycat and sit and think of my life before PCOS came. When I was skinny, and now I am fat. I hate every ounce of myself for this problem. And it's so frustrating that I can't do a damn thing.
So now I am stuck crying again. This is all so ****ty.
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I understand Jenny. I think we all have points where we are just fed up with it. It is unfair, and it gets to us all at different times.
I hate that I can't go out and do things without thinking everyone is looking at me thinking "wow , what's wrong with her?" Most people are probably too busy or self concious about themselves to worry with it, but it is what I think about.
I really hope that you begin to feel better soon. Just know that we understand how you feel and are all hoping for things to brighten up for you.
Thanks for the responses. It still sucks and I know that other people have bigger issue. My best friend's wife is 41 and DYING of ALS now that is unfair. But we cry together every day and he is always there for me. He almost lost his wife on Tuesday, I was there for him and then he was there when I received my m/c call. We both agreed that we are tired of saying other people have worse things cause it just isn't fair.
My weight is steadily going down, I have no hair or complextion problems. I look like the 35 year old who is too self centered to have kids. Teacher, coach and involved. Why don't you have kids? Where are your kids? You'd make a great mom! yeah No kidding.
I do have to admit I have the best OB in the world..he is a close friend and does EVERYTHING he can for me. That is the best. I agree with a pp...I DID get pregnant. I guess losing is better than another BFN...at least I know it can happen.. But geez..how much do I need to take?
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Anyone else think it's unfair? 
