baby has passed (very gross)

purpleprincessau · 04-25-2004, 06:45 AM

This morning the baby passed
It was weird even at 5 weeks it was pretty big (about the size of my thumb)
My Dr asked me to keep it and because it's Sun it's in the fridge
Everytime I open the Fridge I can see it
Very weird it's in my fridge now not inside me
I'm still not crying very much
Think that will come when the Dr confims it
Purple

lots_of_dots · 04-25-2004, 07:09 AM

((((big hugs Purple)))))

I'm so sorry about your loss. I know exactly what you mean about having your baby in the fridge. I've done it a few times myself. I always put mine in a plastic bag and then inside a brown paper bag so I didn't have to look at it if I didn't want to. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

((((more hugs))))

kwannabee · 04-25-2004, 09:03 PM

Ohhhh my God...i just wish i could say something...

it sounds like you're in shock...but when the shell cracks...please reach out to someone...were here for you.

Sending big hugs too you...take care.

purpleprincessau · 04-25-2004, 10:00 PM

I'm trying really hard to hold it all together....
I lost my temper with my daughter this weekend, not at all like me, and I've finally realised just how selfish I've been by allowing myself to get pg and have mc I'm less able to cope with her.
I think she knows something is wrong but I haven't told her.....
I think the one thing I got this time is that at least next time I'll know what I need to do, and have the right Drs lined up
Is it fair of me to get pg with a high risk pg when my daugther needs me to take car of her?

KiwiKitten · 04-26-2004, 01:33 AM

This is a hard one to answer, but i really feel i have to. First of all though, i am really sorry to hear about the loss of your precious baby. As both a mother, and a woman who has had m/c i know the feelings that are running through you right now, especially that weird feeling of unreality where you feel like you are in a bubble that you only seem to be able to break out of to verbally thump someone. You need time to grieve. Not just for the baby, but for the dreams that died too.
It isn't selfish for you to want another baby, not at all. Why would it be? Would it be selfish of you to love anyone other than your daughter just in case something happened to that person and you needed to spend time out grieving for them? Of course it isn't and it is exactly the same thing. Yes, there is always the chance of a m/c when we get pregnant, but then there is the chance of carrying for 9 months and coming home with a new brother or sister for your DD as well.
Take care of yourself, and allow yourself the time to grieve. *hugs* and take care,
Carole