I am trying so hard to be a more active member of the SC community and be there supporting my cysters and offering advice, so I really hate that I am coming here to tell you guys about my anxiety and then offering other people advice on their depression that I can't even follow myself. Blah.
So, this started yesterday when I read about the London bombings. It hurt my heart so much and instantly sent me to panic. Since then I have just had a general panic feeling. Friday (today) is the day when I do everything around the house (laundry, cleaning, balancing the checkbook, and paying bills). Money is such a stressor and it has just added to my anxiety today.
I want to take a xanax but I am already very tired and need to be at least somewhat alert to care for DD. So, I thought I would just come here and get it all out, get some hugs and feel better.
Heather
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I can relate to you all too well. I have severe anxiety...and sometimes I get panic attacks where I just have to kind of shut down for a little while and go and take a nap or a nice hot bath and do some reading. Sometimes the panic attacks get so bad I sweat, get sick to my stomach, have a hard time breathing, sometimes I can not swallow, and I get heart palpatations. When it gets this bad I try to meditate and sometimes it really helps.
I wanted to tell you I am so sorry you are going through this and I wanted to give you some ****BIG HUGS**** I really hope you can get some rest and relaxation....sweetheart we are here for you. ::Hugs::
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I am sorry that you're feeling so lousy. But, if it's any consolation to you, I think that when serious world events occur, such as the terrorist activities in London yesterday, it is quite normal for people to feel anxious and on edge. These events can sometimes throw us into a state of feeling completely uncertain and unsafe, even if the event has not affected us personally (i.e. have not lost a family member, know any of the injured personally, etc.) and has happened in a different country altogether.
Additionally, money is an extremely common major stress for many people. And, if you are struggling financially, even if it's just minimally, it's not surprising that this is a source of anxiety.
Don't be so hard on yourself (easier said than done, I know...)! Maybe you should try meditation - have you ever considered that? Just taking 10-15 minutes out of your day to sit, close your eyes, clear your mind and breathe can be an extremely effective way of helping to cope with anxiety on a day-to-day basis. You can play really nice, soothing CD's in the background (rainforest, oceans, dolphins, etc.) and just focus on the positive. I think it might be worth giving meditation a try.
Heather, try not to beat yourself up. Like Jen said, what has happened here gives everyone a jolt and we all have a feeling of "There but for the grace of God". It's only natural that you should feel anxious.
We are all here because we suffer from depression and stress and it is always easier to give advice to others than to follow it yourself--I should know, I've doled out enough in my time! If I could only act on my own counsel, I'd be fine!You are ALWAYS welcome here, to put in your 2 cents or just air your problems. Take care, and feel better soon.
Thank you everyone, it really helps so much. I just took half a xanax now that DH is home and I am feeling a little better. Wish I could get some real hugs lol.
Heather
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((( hugs))) I know about anxiety all too well and it is really scary. When I get an attack I will sometimes close my eyes and take deep breaths and then go and lay down with my eyes closed and that will help with the symptoms. I hope you feel better real soon.
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I just wanted to let you know that I am sorry that you are having problems right now, hope you feel better real soon. Just remember that sometimes the ones that provide support need it back too...everyone needs somone, sometimes. Many hugs to you.
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I'm sorry that you're having a difficult time right now. I have terrible anxiety and panic attacks and have had a really bad time recently too. Just wanted to send you a hug, and good thoughts your way.
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Heather, try not to beat yourself up. Like Jen said, what has happened here gives everyone a jolt and we all have a feeling of "There but for the grace of God". It's only natural that you should feel anxious. 
