Last January, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I started seeing a therapist and psychiatrist, and was then also diagnosed with ADD, Agoraphobia, and Bipolar disorder. Shortly after I was Dxed with Pcos. I was put on paxil, then prozac, and then buspar for awhile, but the side effects were always terrible, or it did nothing. Those were all for my anxiety, how ever that is not the only main issue at the moment. I have been off all medications for about 4 months. Felt great. Anxiety was still iffy, but public places did not scare me as long as I was with people I was comfortable with. I continued seeing my therapist, but did not like my psychiatrist, and stopped seeing her. Lately.. I have not been feeling so well. I have been cycling like crazy. One minute, I am happy, and then the next minute, I am depressed, and the next minute, I'm hyper.. Its causing me to be extremely hostile, and also causing me to cry at the drop of a pin. Life has been so stressful. I am working two jobs at the moment, full time and part time, and have not been able to get enough sleep. Work has been terrifying. I am a lifeguard at a pool from 6:30-2:30 everyday.. I open the pool, however it has been hard to handle lately. It is dark when I get there, and I have to walk down a very long hall way to get to the pool, and it terrifies me. Last friday, I ended up sprinting down the hallway, locking myself in the pool, and having a panic attack.
A bit after that I felt stupid.
I'm going to my therapist tomorrow, and she is going to either refer me to a psychiatrist, or call my doctors office and do a medication referral.. I'm scared to go to another psychiatrist and explaining my story.. I'm not comfortable with new people. I'm also scared to be on medication again. I am already depressed occasionally and can not imagine it getting worse without being suicidal. I don't want to live my life like this any more and just wish things could get better..
My therapist and I have discussed medications before, and she has suggested adderall and serraquel..
I'm just wondering if this is a good idea.. I am scared, and this mood thing has been unbearable.. I don't know what I should do
You must be aware that with bipolar disorder finding the right medication for you may take a while. You'll be all right. Honest! And if you feel suicidal, like you REALLY may do something, then please call your doctor and let him/her know right away. It can be scary trying out new medications because of possible adverse effects, but once you find the right combination of medications you'll be more than happy. Good luck!
Watch out for too many meds that are supposed to lift your mood, I know you seem more depressed than manic now, but if you are bipolar (like I am), it may not take too much to lift you out of depression and go the opposite way and become manic. And mania can be just as dangerous for your health, take it from me :-/
Years ago I was dx'd with Bi-polar and I wasnt.....I have ADHD. I went on Adderall and never looked back. I was put on seroqual and the horrible weight gain side effect hit me.... Please look at the side-effects to medications, because having PCOS, side -effects of weight gain can do you harm. Good Luck!!!!!!
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Thanks everyone. Almost all bipolar meds cause weight gain. I believe there is only three that don't.. and they're not as potent. I didn't go on them at first because of this, but honestly I'd rather be fat than be as suicidal as i am now.
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