bipolar HELP!!!

foreverhopeful · 12-16-2008, 08:22 PM

i feel totally helpless atm

iv been up and down this last 2 weeks like a blinking yo-yo did a stupid thing the other night took more of my tablets than i should have (just wanted to sleep) and started popping painkillers managed to stop myself at 5 painkillers and got my df up and told him what i had done!

my pychiatrist (sp) sees me every 5 weeks but with xmas i havent seen him this month yet started my hair pulling again started of with just a couple of strands now its 10/20 at a time suppose its better than doing something stupid with tablets

if i could just sleep without my meds i would feel so much better they are suppose to stop nightmares but im having more on them than i did without! if i dont take them then im up till 3am and then have to take them to get any sleep at all i cant win!!!!

sorry for the rambling post just need to get stuff of my chest

Bethann · 12-16-2008, 10:25 PM

You need to call your pyschiatrist as soon as possible. I've been there, taking too much because I just wanted to sleep, so please don't take this as criticism, but that is self endangering behavior and for your own safety you need to talk to your doctor and see what the two of you can do to improve your condition.

This is a lousy condition to deal with, but you're not alone. Please check back in and let us know how you're doing.

foreverhopeful · 12-17-2008, 02:45 PM

just wanted to update you and thank you for your reply feeling a little better today my df has been great and trying to make things easier for me when im in a depressive state just tend to leave everything !! my support worker phoned my doc to see if there was an appointment made for me so im just waiting for them to get back to me!!

going to have a long soak in the bath and watch a nice girly dvd

thanks again

kristie x

Bethann · 12-17-2008, 03:48 PM

I'm glad to hear you're feeling a bit better today, and that you're taking care of yourself. I know what you mean by leaving everything--when I'm depressed I feel like I'm stuck in molassus and can't do anything. Thanks for checking back in, I hope you get to see your doctor soon.

orangey · 12-26-2008, 10:12 PM

i have bpd close to biploar, i started taking lamicitil low dose last december and i have kept a job since and going to cognitive counseling has helped for the times i know i am being crazy(you know what i mean). Also, I know all too much about the nightmares and no sleep. Lamictil is for siezures so i take it before bed and my mind stops and i sleep.
While on lamictil i can concentrate on the therapy and know it will help i hope but who knows to get my hormones balanced and get off lamicitil in time to get pregnant.
I'm not advocating meds or not taking them, everyones different this has just helped me.!cid__2_07CA9A2C07CA97D8007B872186257522.jpgsmile

foreverhopeful · 12-27-2008, 08:14 PM

awwww that is the cutest thing !!!

thank you !!!

feeling loads better been so stressed out the last few months managed to stop taking my quetiapine (also for sleeping/nightmares) and its helped loads coming off them i actually have a life and not in my bed sleeping!!!

jackie_h1 · 12-30-2008, 05:26 PM

Hi Forever, I'm Jackie. I know what you are going through all too well. I remember in the summer of 2006 I went through a serious manic/depressive period. I'm disabled due to Fibromyalgia, severe back problems (I've had spinal fusion surgery x2 & suffer with degenerative disc disease & spinal stenosis, & more)....I had no idea that I was BiPolar @ this time, we just thought I had severe depression with mood changes. At this time I was having a very HAPPY time. I literally went to Lane Bryant and spent 1K! I had no thoughts to wether I could afford all the clothes (thank GOD I could take them back once I returned to a non-manic state), but then I started having serious depression, anxiety, no sleep, restless leg syndromne, feeling hopeless about life (mind you I have a husband and 3 daughters). My Psychiatrist couldn't get me in. I felt like he was purposely ignoring me. My husband was working hella hours, So a combination of Seroquel and pain meds (Oxy, Lorcet, Zanaflex & Lyrica) sent me over the edge and I spent time in the ICU and then the Personal Care Unit. I wanted to feel better. I needed support (this forced my doctor to see me & my husband to reevaluate his work schedule). I needed to know I was not alone. Being on the PCU was the best thing I could have done. I'm not saying medication or treatment this way is for everyone, but if you choose not to medicate/treat, you have to know how to deal with the manic highs, the hypomanic episodes, the depressive lows. I know that I feel so much better with the meds/treatment. In 2006 my Seroquel dose was adjusted (I take a larger dose because I've had gastric bypass surgery and do not absorb meds like a normal person. I take Seroquel 200mg @ 12pm, then I take 800mg @ night to help me sleep. In Sept 2007 I started having anxiety because of my back pain. I also started having serious insomnia. I was started on Lamictal 200mg @ night. It didn't work as well as the doc would have liked, so he started me on Ambien CR which is only to be used if I do not fall asleep within an hour of taking the BiPolar medication. This routine has worked for me for over a year and I only take the Ambien like 4x's a month! My moods have been so stable. I can think straight (no more racing thoughts). I feel very normal, I AM NORMAL, and I know that if I go off the meds, chances are the highs and lows will return and I will have to handle them on my own, and I know I don't handle them well on my own.
I'm here if you need to talk. PM me anytime! BiPolar is not a horrible diagnosis like once thought. We are people too! We are NORMAL people who just have added stresses and problems.

((((hugs))))

tarbaby · 02-11-2009, 01:05 PM

I totally agree with Jackie, you have to be ready to deal with it if you choose to not take meds. Lithium has worked perfectly for me from day one, but I know I won't be in very good shape if I didn't take it regularly.