I know by writing this, I’ll be helping myself release this pain I’m feeling and maybe help people that are going through a similar situation and feel alone.
On August 17th, 2009, I decided to take a pregnancy test because I was a few days late. Nothing different than any other months since I’m irregular, but, I always have some hope that I might be pregnant. So, that day the test came out positive. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I had to get a digital test for it to reassure me by saying “pregnant or not pregnant”. It read “pregnant 2-3 weeks”. My husband and I were overjoyed with our first pregnancy. I was thinking that I proved all my doctors wrong. I could conceive. I never once had a negative thought.
My doctor decided to send me for an early ultrasound because being irregular meant that the dates could be wrong. So, off we went, my husband and I to see our baby. But, we were quickly disappointed when we didn’t see anything. I had been waiting to weeks when my doctor called me on September 25, 2009 to tell me to stop by at the office. I automatically thought the worse. She told me “the gestational age of the sac is 6 weeks and they should have seen something. But there was no yolk”. So I asked her, there’s no baby? She kept positive and said “since you’re irregular, one day can make all the difference on seeing something. So we are going to send you for another ultrasound to see if it’s a miscarriage.”
On September 29th, 2009 I had my first appointment at the maternity clinic and they reviewed my case. The doctor there was very positive telling me it happens a lot that doctors send women for early ultrasounds and they don’t see anything. Everyone gets worked up for nothing because on the second ultrasound they see a healthy baby. After seeing her, my spirit was uplifted. She sent me off for blood tests and scheduled me for another blood test and ultrasound for October 2nd, 2009. She told me to come back to the clinic on the 2nd and they would have the results from all the tests. Then I would know if this was a baby or a blighted ovum.
Yesterday, October 2nd, 2009 was the big day. I had a good feeling. I had been praying since day one of my pregnancy for everything to be normal. So, I was disappointed not to see anything on the ultrasound. I went up to the maternity clinic to wait for the results. Seeing all those pregnant women there really made me realize how badly I wanted this pregnancy to be normal with a healthy baby as the end result. So after waiting 2 hours, a doctor finally asked me to follow him to an office. This doctor was not very reassuring as he told me I had a molar pregnancy. When I asked him “what the hell is that?” I became numb to the world. Thank god I had my cousin with me. She was able to word the questions my mind couldn’t. He told us I had to wait for the specialist and he would know more.
As we waited for the specialist, my cousin being the sweetheart she is, really tried to reassure me this was for the best. It was the weirdest feeling, I was there with her in body, but, my mind was off somewhere.
When the specialist closed the door to his office, he told me “we’ll have to schedule you for a D&C stat. Did you eat today?” I was like, “what are you talking about”. He wanted to do it that day. Then by asking a lot of questions, my cousin and I were able to find out that a molar pregnancy happens 1 in 1000 pregnancies. It’s very rare, but, they need to take it out because they rarely pass on their own. Also, there are the “aggressive moles “that will spread in your body and then you need special treatments. They don’t know exactly which one it is until they analyze it. Worse case, it can be cancerous.
Imagine, being happy that you became pregnant only to find out that you conceived. Then finding out there never was a baby, just an abnormal placenta with little cysts that might spread to your body if we don’t scrape it out now. Then, having to be monitored for 6 to 12 months to make sure it’s gone from your system to finally be able to try to get pregnant again. Then I wondered "why couldn't it just bea blighted ovum.
I will be going for the D&C October 4th, 2009 and I feel like this is just a nightmare. I almost feel like I’m going to wake up any minute and realize it was just a dream and the baby and I are ok. But, unfortunately, my nightmare is just starting. I don’t know what lies ahead with the results from the D&C. I’m just thankful this scary mole was caught early and I hope they can remove all of it and nothing spread throughout my body.
If you read this whole story, God bless you for your patience. I guess I just need to get this out of me and see if anyone out there has gone through the same thing, or have any advice or comments for me. I guess my numbness is starting to go away and I’m just looking for support from people that understand. Thanks for reading…
Annie
(I’ll post what happened at the D&C and the results for those who are curious)
I am a PA at a family practice clinic, so when I first learned that I was pregnant- my first fear was a molar pregnancy. Not a common problem, but I remembered it from my OB/GYN rotation and the amount of monitoring it took. Turns out I do have a blighted ovum (lucky I guess) and I'll also be having a d&c tomorrow. I'm so sorry for your experience, and I hope this is over quickly for you.
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Tried metformin, clomid, ovarian drilling, varicocele repair, IUI's, HcG trigger. Got pregnant while "on a break"
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Well I did go for my D&C on October 3rd. The doctor said everything seemed to have gone well. Now I just need to wait for the results to find out what kind of "mole" I had. A month... isn't that a long time to wait to find out if your ok, or if you might have to have some serious treatment? I try to have a positive attitude about this, but, it's hard when people had told me before that everything was goign to be fine and then I found out about this molar pregnancy. I know I shouldn't think that way, but, it's hard to keep smiling when you don't know if your ok or not. Any thoughts?
I just had a D&C yesterday at 12 weeks for a blighted ovum ... but the sac and tissue that my doc took out was much more than she thought it would be, so it is suspected molar. We are waiting on pathology to find out. I totally understand what you are going through ... it so emotionally horrible and painful.
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Blighted ovum... or so I thought (my story) 
