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Got To Get My Heart Back

I Just Need A Little Corner Of Space, To Be Me In A Way That Other Little Corners Have Not.

  1. In Response to Mrs. Pain, Audi, and Princess.

    by , 03-14-2012 at 08:49 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    First of all thanks for talking to me about this. Mrs.Pain I'm starting to feel a really impersonal vibe from my RE and his office mates as well. When it comes down to it, it's a job for them. I'm not asked for them to hold my hand and sing with me, but at least be available. I pull hope from just about anything. When it took so long for me to get through to them, I honestly thought the best. So I held off, but honestly, I felt symptoms earlier in the cycle when I thought I was so many days DPO ...
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  2. Weighing Options....

    by , 03-13-2012 at 02:20 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I'm still not sure if I want to go through with this cycle or not. Perhaps I will just for the sake of the whole third time's a charm thing. I'm looking at getting insurance coverage for myself outside of Tricare that actually covers IVF instead of this so called discount BS my RE told me about. IVF is seriously expensive and I know that we can't afford to spend that kind of money right now, and probably not until we're in our 30s, because we have other goals and expenses. My RE started talking ...
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  3. Got The Results..

    by , 03-12-2012 at 04:24 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    After calling my doctor's office 4 times today, because they took their time calling me back I got my results, and it's not good. My progesterone levels were 1.18, no O over here. I'm confused because of all the things my doctor said, but at this point, I'm convinced that the charting, and the imaging collectively don't mean crap. As of now I don't even think I can take anymore. I had so much hope after that doctor's visit. I was over the moon thinking that I had ovulated and now this. It's definitely ...
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  4. Today...

    by , 03-11-2012 at 02:12 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Today I have no tests that I care to use and I'm waiting for Tuesday test again. I know that my HCG levels are slow to rise and I know that I'm just stressing myself out by dipping sticks on a daily basis in a effort to catch pregnancy early because I am supposed to use progesterone suppositories. I tried to tell myself that the dipping wouldn't begin until AF was late. It's due on the 12th and as of now there is a lot of cramping but no sign that she's actually wanting to show up here. With a possible ...
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  5. Today...

    by , 03-11-2012 at 02:12 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Today I have no tests that I care to use and I'm waiting for Tuesday test again. I know that my HCG levels are slow to rise and I know that I'm just stressing myself out by dipping sticks on a daily basis in a effort to catch pregnancy early because I am supposed to use progesterone suppositories. I tried to tell myself that the dipping wouldn't begin until AF was late. It's due on the 12th and as of now there is a lot of cramping but no sign that she's actually wanting to show up here. With a possible ...
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  6. AMAZON HAS P'ed ME OFF!

    by , 03-10-2012 at 05:11 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I am due for AF on the 12th, and I am running out of IC tests, I mean I only have one left, and I don't want to use my only clear blue digital, or my 2 FRER tests. And you guys know that if I call my RE's office and my progesterone level is greater than 3 and AF still hasn't arrived that I'd be testing like crazy until she either showed her ugly face or I got my BFP. I wanted to use IC tests starting Monday until AF came and if it didn't come and I got a faint line I wanted to go on the test with ...
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  7. Back From RE Office, I have Hope!

    by , 03-09-2012 at 04:21 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Alright, so I went to the RE's office. I made it there in Maryland traffic and back ALIVE! Woot for that first of all. Now, I went for my Clomid check and he asked for my chart. I gave it to him and much to my dismay he held it up turned it about and then said, "Oh it looks good. It looks really good." He went on to check my uterus and everything and told me that my uterus looked like he would expect it to look if I ovulated. So that's a good thing. I will take my day in day out cramping ...
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  8. Going to the RE ALONE!!!!

    by , 03-09-2012 at 11:02 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Arghhhhhhhhh! I don't wanna go by myself daddy. lol That's may hissy fit. He couldn't get out of work for it, so I've driving 40mins to the RE's office solo. I have to be there at 10:30PM I'm a nervous wreck. It's a clomid check to he gets to see my goodies again. I HATE THAT, but it is necessary, then I'll be having bloods drawn and then I'm gonna go home and relax and maybe do some homework. Today's the 9th it's due the 12th. I must finish up. I have to be sharp for test #3. Booooooo. Anyway, ...
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  9. 13DPO Symptom Spotting/Off To The RE!!!!

    by , 03-08-2012 at 07:18 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    How did I get here? I just wanted to feel normal again after the whole health fiasco of last year. Now I'm on Clomid. I'm freakin' tired as hell all the time, I don't even want to get on the scale because I know I've gained weight, and talk about moody. Yet and still I'm wanting this to go right this time. Hubby and I really want baby number two. What will I learn tomorrow? After the awkward transvaginal ultrasound, featuring a medical student, a nurse, and a very embarrassed me. I can't help but ...
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  10. Almost 11DPO-Symptom Spotting/Commentary

    by , 03-06-2012 at 12:03 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Alright, according to FF I'm 10 DPO and I did break down and test. I have vowed NOT to do it again at least until AF is due, mainly because hubby doesn't want me driving myself crazy by racking up the BFN's. He keeps reminding me of when I found out I was pregnant with my DD. It took for me to be about 2.5 weeks late for my BFP to show up on a digi. I remember coming down the stairs and my boobs hurting with every step. I went out and bought a test despite getting a BFN at the doctors office. The ...
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