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I Just Need A Little Corner Of Space, To Be Me In A Way That Other Little Corners Have Not.

  1. Hospitalized For Christmas...

    by , 12-25-2012 at 12:57 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Wow what a pregnancy. My water broke @ 3:30AM Thursday morning, and now I'm officially going to be a January mommy. I will be induced on 28 January and hopefully deliver a healthy 34 weeker. They won't let me stay pregnant longer than that because of risk of infection. I am spending this Christmas in the hospital but oh it will be so worth it. My little boy is strong and currently weighing in at around 2lbs 10oz. I'm thrilled that he's ok. My water level is at a 3 and it leaks out often, but they ...
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  2. Cerclage Update...

    by , 10-25-2012 at 09:25 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I had the cerclage put in yesterday morning at 10:30. I honestly am quite nervous about what's to come. I don't know what my body is going to do. I have prayed and I'm trying to maintain my faith and my understanding that I have done all I can do. The rest is in God's capable hands. I just can't believe I had to have something like this done. I can't believe that my desire to become a parent again had brought me such heartache. First the SCH, and the 3.5 weeks of bleeding and the bed rest that came ...
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  3. 20 Wks ~~~ IT'S A BOY!!!

    by , 10-23-2012 at 12:16 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I have to get my feelings in black and white so that I can breathe a little. My family and I got the wonderful news that we are expecting a little boy. However, we also go the news that my cervix is short. It is a mere 1.5cm as opposed to 3-4cm and I am on bed rest and back on progesterone suppositories. I want to look back at this time with my baby in my arms and recall all of this as being worth it. I know that my children are special and important to me. My daughter brightens up my world. This ...
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  4. More excitement!!!!! 16wks 4 days!!!

    by , 09-28-2012 at 09:59 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Hi ladies!!! So I'm pleased to report that so far from what I have been told everything is ok. I was told I was safe to resume normal activity by the idiot nurse practitioner I've been seeing, and hubby and I resumed sex weeks ago. We haven't been going nuts with it or anything because we have been through so much, just once/twice a week. We recently went about 2 weeks without sex, and around 1:30AM we did. I went back down stairs after, about 2:20AM and sat for a little while. Cleaned my kitchen ...
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  5. 16 wks 2 days

    by , 09-26-2012 at 11:29 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Hey everybody. I know it's been a while. I have been so frustrated, and I'm tired of the questions in my mind involving this pregnancy. I guess I've calmed down a bit, but for every moment of calm there is on of stress. I think I'm just going to have to keep going through things until I'm the girl I used to be. The one that wasn't scared of anything. Now for an update.

    Baby and I are doing well. My SCH seems to have resolved about 6 wks ago, and all has been well minus a couple moments ...
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  6. 12 Wk Ultrasound~12 wks 3days

    by , 08-30-2012 at 04:12 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Hi everybody. I made it, I'm here 12+3 wks. I had my 12 wk ultrasound and baby was looking good. Flipping and flopping around all over the place and the tech did not see the SCH. I was looking hard for it on my screen and she told me in the end, it's either resolved or it's extremely tiny. I'll take that it's resolved for $500 Alex! Anyway, I am just overwhelmed with joy that I'm in the second trimester and moving forward. I'm still horrified to have sex though, and hubby sort of agrees. He says ...
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  7. Untitled Update, and Talk...

    by , 08-20-2012 at 01:29 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I'm not sure what to title this post. I am thankful to have made it through another week. I'm still pregnant, and coming up on being 11wks exactly tomorrow. The subchorionic hemorrhage has done so much. It has brought out the worst in me, in terms of my anxiety and fear. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. My husband and I have gone back and forth about me and my desire to go on-line and research and learn about SCH. I want to know and understand what my chances are of beating this thing. I don't understand ...
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  8. Still Fighting.

    by , 08-13-2012 at 01:27 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So, I'm still here going through the hell of SCH. I just hate seeing anything on the TP when I wipe. So far no one has been able to see it in the ultrasound scans. The RE that released me didn't see it, but told me where it would be likely to be if she was able to see it. I guess that's good news, but I am still passing old blood from the initial bleed. The Nurse Practitioner told me that her machine is not likely to pick on up anyway. It was old as dirt, and I was surprised that it worked properly. ...
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  9. 8wks 4days...So Much Fear :(

    by , 08-03-2012 at 02:52 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I'm still dealing with spotting from the SCH. Sometimes it's more sometimes it's almost at a complete end. Overall, I've been on an emotional roller coaster and I find myself crying and doubled over with fear. I just keep wondering when it's going to be enough. I have already been through so much. If I read a miscarriage story, I fear that I'm next. I can't even control the way I feel.

    I try to be hopeful and have faith, but the circumstances make me feel so unsure. I know that ...
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  10. 8wks 2days...

    by , 08-01-2012 at 12:52 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Still spotting off and on. It seemed to be off and then it just came back on. I'm on boring bed rest and the bleed is running it's course anyway. I may go back to the RE's office sooner than Monday just to see if it's made any progress. Gosh so many ultrasounds.

    I'm doing 100mg of Endometrin suppositories daily and honestly yesterday, the dark red but watery spotting picked up a little. I'm hoping it tapers off again and doesn't end up turning into an unforeseen big bleed. I am happy ...
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