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I Just Need A Little Corner Of Space, To Be Me In A Way That Other Little Corners Have Not.

  1. AF is here...Oh the Pain

    by , 04-29-2012 at 01:07 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    This on is painful. I don't know why, I just know that I woke up with it and man does it hurt. I am planning for this to be a lazy day, and probably a lazy week, but we'll see. I'm PISSED about the high level of sabotage there is in the world.

    I decided to broaden my horizons and apply to my current community college's nursing and physical therapy program. I was more than a little perturbed to arrive and orientations for both, only to hear of the slim number of applicants they will ...
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  2. Eating Clean...hehe Gripe Alert

    by , 04-26-2012 at 01:30 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I have taken to strength training and clean eating. This morning I had plain oatmeal and 5 egg whites. Surprisingly it was tasty. My only gripe is the sweetening of it. Now the whole clean eating thing can make people obsess about stuff that, to me doesn't matter. I am tracking on my fitness pal to see where my calories end up with this clean eating lifestyle, but I'm hard to turn into a fanatic. Back to the point. I read that you can sweeten the oatmeal with maple syrup, and/or agave nectar. ...
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  3. Next Cycle Please :)

    by , 04-25-2012 at 01:35 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I've been taking provera for 6 days now. When I first started I had quite a bit of cramping which was different from my other two cycles, but hey, this is PCOS. Who know what the heck is going on in there? Anyway, I am debating whether or not to take the provera today and then call it seven or just stop now and wait for AF. AF usually arrives 3-4 days after the last pill and I am pretty eager to start to see if I O on Femara. I'm going to start at 5mg of Femara and I'm going to be taking it CD ...
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  4. When To Say Screw It...Not To TTC...

    by , 04-18-2012 at 02:10 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I'm just debating on when to say screw it to waiting. I'm in limbo. I asked my PCD to put in an lab requisition for progesterone and hcg levels. Once I get those results I can move on with my plan to take provera to bring AF and to start Femara. I just don't know why it's not in yet. I'm sure I'll get the shock of my life and have like .8 for a progesterone level considering the fact that they have been lower after each Clomid cycle. Crazy I know but so true. So I'm gonna call again and try to ...
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  5. What Now...

    by , 04-17-2012 at 12:43 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I'm about ready to see my RE and have "the talk." I'm just really, really frustrated. I keep getting these pretty intense uterine cramps mainly at night, and when I wake up in the morning. I also have had severe insomnia and BFN's all over the place. I can still see CM though. It's not all dried up and I'm confused. OHSS maybe? I don't know. I have energy, and I feel ok, but the cramping is confusing. If I had a chemical, where is AF? So many questions. I'm waiting for IHP Femara to ...
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  6. Femara Plan...

    by , 04-09-2012 at 11:46 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So after some talking to hubby, about IHP, I ordered Femara. My referral to my RE expires in 3 months. I plan to keep seeing him or some other RE and keep getting my ultrasounds, and take the Femara. I don't have a lot of faith in this cycle. If the pdoc was right about the chemical, AF should be here by Sunday. If not I may go in for the BETAS because I did get my requisition forms updated. I do want to know my progesterone levels, and then I feel like I don't want them. I'll get them if AF doesn't ...
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  7. Checking In

    by , 04-09-2012 at 04:14 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Didn't want to leave all my friends hanging. I did not go back for bloods. I'm going to call to ask my p-doc to add a progesterone level check to my blood work and have it drawn later this week. My live 5 goes back to school tomorrow, and DH wants to do something fun. I figure I can be a good sport and do something like that with him... I had a full spring break week that helped me to take my mind off of things. We did the hiking and went to 6 Flags, where I learned that my daughter was tall ...
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  8. It's Over...

    by , 04-05-2012 at 01:04 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I am beyond upset. I took negative tests today by urine, and the stupid whatever they were at the doctor's office couldn't get the blood out of my arm needed to do the labs. They suggested the I hydrate and come back. I asked for the lab requisition form and went home. I will not be going for bloods. That would only open the door for more pain. My doctor told me that it was probably a chemical, and that they go as fast as they come. My question is whether or not I should still be waiting for a period ...
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  9. Waiting For Beta Day...

    by , 04-03-2012 at 05:55 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    At this point I'm just waiting for BETA day. I do not like feeling this way. I took so many tests, and more than half of them are BFP. I just thought that once your BFP they all should come out that way. I've upset myself reading things about apple juice, and opks being too close to your hpt. Every BFP was not gotten with a OPK next to it, but it's enough to drive someone nuts. I just want my answer and my closure. I have a hard time believing the fate could be that cruel, but I'm no sucker. I want ...
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  10. BFP Yeseterday, BFN Today.

    by , 04-02-2012 at 12:58 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Alright so I kept testing throughout the day yesterday. I got a lot of faint BFPs after the first one and another dark one at like 9PM. Hubby and I said yes, we'll accept it and move one. We are expecting. Then this morning came and I tested again after a long day have drinking lots and lots of fluids. I went to bed with another BFP at 3AM. I dozed on the couch and then tested with my end of the day pee, I guess just still in shock, and a BFP registered before I got off the potty. I smiled and went ...
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