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  1. Life Goes On

    So much has happened and yet it all stays the same. I'm doing good, working full time, and loving the married life.

    I had a very disappointing RE visit in June 2012 which has caused me to go in an entirely different direction as far as TTC is concerned. I'm now on Vitex and had my first non-provera/bcp cycle in over 2 years which is crazy. I knew my period was coming even though I'd only stared Vitex ealy July 2012 and it was barely August, then I got up that morning and felt different.
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  2. Untitled Update, and Talk...

    by , 08-20-2012 at 01:29 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I'm not sure what to title this post. I am thankful to have made it through another week. I'm still pregnant, and coming up on being 11wks exactly tomorrow. The subchorionic hemorrhage has done so much. It has brought out the worst in me, in terms of my anxiety and fear. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. My husband and I have gone back and forth about me and my desire to go on-line and research and learn about SCH. I want to know and understand what my chances are of beating this thing. I don't understand ...
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  3. Still Fighting.

    by , 08-13-2012 at 01:27 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So, I'm still here going through the hell of SCH. I just hate seeing anything on the TP when I wipe. So far no one has been able to see it in the ultrasound scans. The RE that released me didn't see it, but told me where it would be likely to be if she was able to see it. I guess that's good news, but I am still passing old blood from the initial bleed. The Nurse Practitioner told me that her machine is not likely to pick on up anyway. It was old as dirt, and I was surprised that it worked properly. ...
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  4. 8wks 4days...So Much Fear :(

    by , 08-03-2012 at 02:52 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I'm still dealing with spotting from the SCH. Sometimes it's more sometimes it's almost at a complete end. Overall, I've been on an emotional roller coaster and I find myself crying and doubled over with fear. I just keep wondering when it's going to be enough. I have already been through so much. If I read a miscarriage story, I fear that I'm next. I can't even control the way I feel.

    I try to be hopeful and have faith, but the circumstances make me feel so unsure. I know that ...
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  5. 8wks 2days...

    by , 08-01-2012 at 12:52 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Still spotting off and on. It seemed to be off and then it just came back on. I'm on boring bed rest and the bleed is running it's course anyway. I may go back to the RE's office sooner than Monday just to see if it's made any progress. Gosh so many ultrasounds.

    I'm doing 100mg of Endometrin suppositories daily and honestly yesterday, the dark red but watery spotting picked up a little. I'm hoping it tapers off again and doesn't end up turning into an unforeseen big bleed. I am happy ...
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  6. Back To The RE!

    by , 07-31-2012 at 02:05 AM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Hey ladies! I wanted to say thanks for telling me your stories and giving me your advice. It didn't look too bad on the scan today. I think I said earlier she showed me like a trail of blood that was really thin and moving around the baby and out of the cervix. I am just so thankful that this is something that can be recovered from, and that babies have and are making it in spite of these things. Every time I see that little heartbeat I just feel so hopeful, and thankful. I've been taking it very ...
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  7. Update!!!

    by , 07-28-2012 at 06:33 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Thanks everyone for your well wishes and prayers. It means so much to me. The ER called me back after I'd been at home thinking I'll never have an answer. A better radiologist came in and I was notified that it is a subchorionic hemorrhage. I think I can see it on my 1 ultrasound photo. It doesn't look like it's touching the baby. The bleeding is subsiding, and I'm hoping it ends completely soon. It is so disheartening to have to wear a pad while I'm pregnant. I know that most pregnancies work out ...
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  8. So Scared!!!

    by , 07-27-2012 at 01:06 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    I need prayer. I hadn't had any cramping for 3 days. Then on the way to my scan in the car I'm cramping and it's not severe it feels like AF. When I step out of the car at the scan I feel the gush. I tell my husband and daughter to stop playing around I need to hurry up and get in I don't like what I just felt. Once inside I go up the elevator and go straight up to the RE's office bathroom. There it was, bright red blood in my underwear, and dripping into the toilet. Thinking it would stop I stuffed
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  9. 7wks Exactly...

    by , 07-23-2012 at 04:06 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    So I couldn't take it anymore and I explained as best I could my condition to my daughter, because I am so exhausted and I have no energy, an she just wants to play the day away. She asked me to her room to play with her toys with her. I asked her to give me a few minutes. She watched an episode of spongebob and asked again. I told her I couldn't and she began to cry. I then told her about the baby, but about not having a heartbeat yet. I told her that if for any reason we never got our baby, mommy ...
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  10. 6 wks 4 days!

    by , 07-20-2012 at 10:59 PM (Got To Get My Heart Back)
    Alright, I had my first ultrasound with my RE today, and everything looked fine to him. He is so hurried all the time.

    I went to the ER with super light pink/orange looking spotting fearing the worse. I had an ultrasound there and the tech spend LOTS of time looking around in there. She identified a fetal pole, sac, and everything, including what she thought was a little flickering heartbeat. She tried to show it to me even though she wasn't supposed to and honestly I couldn't see ...
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