Alittle blog... for now..
I am so irritated and nervous. I know this only my 3rd medicated cyle.. but it's been a year this month since my m/c and we've been trying since. I test on monday and I honestly feel like I did when i found I was pregnant.. that I wasn't. then a few weeks later i started really feeling it then it went away. I want that back. I want to hold my precious baby in my hands and my husband smile so big because he finally gets to be a dad. Just a sad day I guess.. I just...

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I am so freegin' anxious! Just keep having these butterfly feelings that this going to work for me this month. I just do. Most of the time I'm one of those people that gripe because me glass is half empty. But... I am finally optimistic about this. Got a great RE that believes in me. I have to give up on my OBGYN since she made me feel like she didn't care if I got pregnant or not. Her words are " You are young, you have awhile!" and you CAN get pregnant.. so there is no hurry. Well.....

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Got the call today that my second pap smear is in fact abnormal. That is was as close to normal this time as you can get. HPV+ But they still want to do a coposcopy just to see if there is dysplasia. I'm fine with that becuase i just everything to be fine. I'm scared and nervous, but I know everything will be fine. I already knew i had HPV, figured thats why it was abnormal since i was pregnant, now its after m/c so I think it's going back down. I have two fever blisters on my lower lip and they...

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Had family time today and my grandmothers and my cousin (21 year old stripper) and my aunt (34 something) was going on and on about how they had a d&c too and their doctors said they couldn't carry again and if they did it would be bed rest.. But, my cousin had 2 abortions and the last baby m/c so she had a d&c. My aunt has 2 kids and had I think 2 d&c's and I think 2 m/c all between and after the first and second. Eight more days til' the dr appt i think i will be fine when I can get...

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I keep randomly cramping and my breasts are sore random too. I keep getting excited and then sad. Am I pregnant or not? I am too scared to take a test again and see a - right now. I go on the 14th so I just need to hang in there for 9 more days. I started my metformin again, but i can't take a whole pill at once without... having a bathroom accident. >< I weighed yesterday and weighed more than i did a week ago and I really felt like i lost some weight, half a pound more. Stopped all soda...

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