Newbie-Part of my story
Part of my story: Read and enjoy the newbie's story, if you feel like responding to my blog feel free, much appreciated, Very theraputic for me just to put it out here:
I'm 27 years old and I have been off and on birth control pills since I was 17 to regulate my irregular periods. At 21, I started having really bad acne and my dermatologist referred me to an endocronologist who put me on Spironolactone in addition to the Ortho-tri-cylen and Effexor I was taking. The acne cleared up.
When I turned 24, I decided to get off of all of my medications and for the last 4 years it has been a slow sort of hell for my mind and body. In that time I saw 3 gyno, 1 dermo who all had something different to say. I even had a sonogram which showed no cysts.
I am 5'8 at 130 pounds, no IR to my knowledge(never had drink test, just fasting morning serum test) and I have no way of knowing if I am ovulating or not. I feel as a woman I should know more about my body and I don't and it is frustrating.
The only symptom I know for certain I have and it pains me daily is hirsutism on my arms, face (forehead, temples, nose, cheeks, sideburns)
I have been on ortho-tri-cylcen, yasmin, ovcon, femcon, and spiro without the right combo and probably without staying with one doctor long enough to deal with this issue due to lack of finding a compassionate doctor and due to financial restrictions. And I don't know which medicine is helping anymore.
Or if I really need any of it for lack of having PCOS (or not).
I've been off and on Spiro. One doctor informed me that if my testosterone is normal and I take Sprio I am in an essence losing muscle mass (which could be due to everything falling at my age, in a sense do not want to hurry the process) and losing essential nutrients through the diurectic part of Sprio (especially if I am not getting enough nutrients as it is) I don't know what to do. I have some prescription left (might just start it myself) Unsure if I should w/o BC
My concuring depression is due to my body dymorphic syndrome (not properly diagnosed, just putting a label) This is a very vicious cylce and I hate it and I hate my self for putting my life on hold. My self esteem is so low I keep everyone at bay and will not even fathom the idea of being involved with anyone. Especially since I don't know if I can have children or not (which is important to m).
I'm tired of talking about this embarrassing subject with my doctors without any proper help. I had one doctor put me on a bc that was known to increase facial hair in women and then try to refer me to a laser center run by his daughter (Argh!)
Any advice or comments appreciated. Tired of doing the same thing w/o any results. Only getting worse. Mainly just wanted to share, say hello, and put this out there. While this is very frustraing for me, I know it could be worse and there are many who are suffering more than me and in different ways.
Auspice
Knowing is better
Unsure where to begin on a road already traveled
I'm 27 years old and I have been off and on birth control pills since I was 17 to regulate my irregular periods. At 21, I started having really bad acne and my dermatologist referred me to an endocronologist who put me on Spironolactone in addition to the Ortho-tri-cylen and Effexor I was taking. The acne cleared up.
When I turned 24, I decided to get off of all of my medications and for the last 4 years it has been a slow sort of hell for my mind and body. In that time I saw 3 gyno, 1 dermo who all had something different to say. I even had a sonogram which showed no cysts.
I am 5'8 at 130 pounds, no IR to my knowledge(never had drink test, just fasting morning serum test) and I have no way of knowing if I am ovulating or not. I feel as a woman I should know more about my body and I don't and it is frustrating.
The only symptom I know for certain I have and it pains me daily is hirsutism on my arms, face (forehead, temples, nose, cheeks, sideburns)
I have been on ortho-tri-cylcen, yasmin, ovcon, femcon, and spiro without the right combo and probably without staying with one doctor long enough to deal with this issue due to lack of finding a compassionate doctor and due to financial restrictions. And I don't know which medicine is helping anymore.
Or if I really need any of it for lack of having PCOS (or not).
I've been off and on Spiro. One doctor informed me that if my testosterone is normal and I take Sprio I am in an essence losing muscle mass (which could be due to everything falling at my age, in a sense do not want to hurry the process) and losing essential nutrients through the diurectic part of Sprio (especially if I am not getting enough nutrients as it is) I don't know what to do. I have some prescription left (might just start it myself) Unsure if I should w/o BC
My concuring depression is due to my body dymorphic syndrome (not properly diagnosed, just putting a label) This is a very vicious cylce and I hate it and I hate my self for putting my life on hold. My self esteem is so low I keep everyone at bay and will not even fathom the idea of being involved with anyone. Especially since I don't know if I can have children or not (which is important to m).
I'm tired of talking about this embarrassing subject with my doctors without any proper help. I had one doctor put me on a bc that was known to increase facial hair in women and then try to refer me to a laser center run by his daughter (Argh!)
Any advice or comments appreciated. Tired of doing the same thing w/o any results. Only getting worse. Mainly just wanted to share, say hello, and put this out there. While this is very frustraing for me, I know it could be worse and there are many who are suffering more than me and in different ways.
Auspice
Knowing is better
Unsure where to begin on a road already traveled
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