DMM1024

I always get cramps in the weirdest places. In my pelvic area, sometimes it feels like my ovaries are cramping. Is that even possible? And can you believe that joke of a doctor said he had never heard of pelvic pain being connected with PCOS. What is he even talking about? Really, what planet did he receive his Ph.D. in?

I definitely get cramping every time after my fiance and I have sex. I have read that other women experience this too, but is there any way to stop it? Is it really part of this whole PCOS thing? I don't know who to ask, how to ask it, or what to say. I have never been good at talking about personal issues like that. Where I was raised, sex was a no no issue. Even now I would never bring it up to my mom. And I am out an endo, so who can I really talk to about it. I don't want to tell DM because he would feel bad and want to help, but I don't know what to tell him will help. He is so good about getting me the heating pad and massaging my back when he knows I don't feel well. I don't know what I would ever do without his support.

I am just tired. Tired of cramping. Tired of feeling crummy. Tired of the whole body aches. Tired of the periods that come and don't leave or that just don't come at all. Tired of all the medicine every night. Tired of making myself go to the gym because I will feel sick the next day if I don't. And tired of wondering if, when I decide it is time for me to have children, if I will even be able to have a normal happy pregnancy like all my other non-pcos friends who are making babies right now. Tired and cynical. That is what I am right now.