I think that pcos is one of the most difficult and emotionally draining disorders that any woman has to face. I have gone through so many emotional rollarcoasters in the past four years and I am not even ttc. Of course I don't want to think that far ahead but someone like me can become totally fixated on ttc. Its kind of feels like this challenge that God has given me. No not every woman should be a mother or was meant to be one but I feel that in some ways I was given pcos as a test. A challenge...

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there have been so many changes since the last time that i blogged.....changes in love, relationships, friendships, school and just my overall outlook on life.

By the time the spring semester ended at LIU...i was ready to leave the schoo forever. there was nothing wrong with the staff, students or classes....my living situation was a mess. my dad basically told me that i wasnt supposed to be there and to stay away from him. nice thing to say to someone who has never been away from their...

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This is kind of a continuation to my Sidekick Slide Chronicles. I am always thinking about sooo many things and I write alot on my phone. Some of these notes that I have written are pretty old but I still wanted to post them. Some people may agree with them and it may help them in some way. If you have a comment feel free to leave one!

I've cried so many tears that my heart has to take a turn. I write to
express all of the things that I would never dare to say to anyone. ...

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I am an actress. I am a model. I am the girl of your dreams. I am the
nightmare. I am the lover. I am the fearful. The fearless. I am a
soldier. The enemy. I am a survivor. My battle scars don't define me. I
am your light but my darkness. I am a beautiful disaster. A tragic
party. That smooth reminder of what you could of have. The daughter. The
perfect emotional con artist. I am the comforter but wish to be
comforted. The fearful optimist. The brown eyed...

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I love names,lol... and I have had a long list for a while of baby names that I love and would really consider for my future babies! Who knows if the list is gonna grow or stay the same or if my kids will even have these names?,lol.... heres the list:


Boy Names ( I really like Biblical Names,lol)

Jerimiah... appointed by God
Isaiah..... Salvation of God
Elijah.... the Lord is my God
Nehimiah... Comforter
Jaeden... Thankful
Gabriel...

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