Kinda worried!!
Posted 10-27-2008 at 02:08 PM by kentbird
Well it's been 4 days since i had my ovaries drilled, the stitches are annoying and i can't bend but apart from that i don't feel any different. Should i feel different?
i don't know because no one has told me what to expect.
My specialist tried me on various levels of clomid, and then decided it wasn't working, well observed lol x so he said the next option was either IVF, which id have to pay for as i have a daughter already. or Ovarian Drilling. Well i went for the ovarian drilling and was absolutley terrified!!! Scared of the hospital, scared of the op, scared of the outcome!! i guess im just terrified, and i have no one to talk to as all my friends are healthy and a few have just had babies so no one really gets why i'm worried!
All i keep getting told is "your 26, you have years left"
So i go for the op and guess what, not scary atall!! easiest op in the world! was in and out in a day!!! the pain was like a really bad period, and i mean really bad, but the drugs helped ease that! so the pain is fading but the worry isnt.
I went in, had the op got bundled out, like in a supermarket!!
i don't know when this might start working, do i take the last of my clomid? when do i start having sex again and how often do we do it, all questions i didnt have time to ask and am too embarrassed now to ring in and ask!
Then theres the biggest worry, they said if this doesnt work then its only IVF left, which i can never afford, so if this doesnt work ( and im the biggest optimist alive , when my mum died i said, Least she isnt in pain) im an optimist but IF this doesnt work, thats it......nothing left for me to try!!!!!
so scared!!!
i don't know because no one has told me what to expect.
My specialist tried me on various levels of clomid, and then decided it wasn't working, well observed lol x so he said the next option was either IVF, which id have to pay for as i have a daughter already. or Ovarian Drilling. Well i went for the ovarian drilling and was absolutley terrified!!! Scared of the hospital, scared of the op, scared of the outcome!! i guess im just terrified, and i have no one to talk to as all my friends are healthy and a few have just had babies so no one really gets why i'm worried!
All i keep getting told is "your 26, you have years left"
So i go for the op and guess what, not scary atall!! easiest op in the world! was in and out in a day!!! the pain was like a really bad period, and i mean really bad, but the drugs helped ease that! so the pain is fading but the worry isnt.
I went in, had the op got bundled out, like in a supermarket!!
i don't know when this might start working, do i take the last of my clomid? when do i start having sex again and how often do we do it, all questions i didnt have time to ask and am too embarrassed now to ring in and ask!
Then theres the biggest worry, they said if this doesnt work then its only IVF left, which i can never afford, so if this doesnt work ( and im the biggest optimist alive , when my mum died i said, Least she isnt in pain) im an optimist but IF this doesnt work, thats it......nothing left for me to try!!!!!
so scared!!!
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 | Your post really got to me, I am 33 and I have a daughter and I too get told not to worry or stress out and that we have lots of time. It is time that you would really rather not waste worrying though. It is time that you would rather spend living. I wish you all the luck and please dont be worried about bothering the doctors, you need to know what to do. I think that you just have to take stock sometimes of the good things in your life, the things you do have - and accept that sometimes you cant change everything. I wish you the best. |
Posted 01-05-2009 at 04:11 PM by beckyportelli  |
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