Ok so today was pretty much the worst day of my life.
This morning my Pop passed away..
I was at the hosital all night until he was gone I didnt smoke at all at the hospital but tonight i had a few puffs on a joint. I still dont want to go back to smoke full time but i needed to chill the hell out. It was a slip up but i think it was needed. Im going to try and still work out and eat well and not smoke.. but i think the next few days may be a bit of a blur..

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Well its 10am on day 5 and i didnt sleep at all last night.. I think most of the withdrawals have died down but i still cant seem to sleep properly. I have real bad nausea and the occasional random mood swiing but thats about it, still sweating a little bit at night but nothing like i was at the start of the week. Ive started working out, going for walks and using the awesome Wii Fit... that thing works wonders!
No carbs after 4 isnt that hard.. just had to find some decent recipes
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Today i feel weird. Got 12 hours sleep last night.. that was awesome. My head is all fuzzy though, i have really bad nausea and i just feel lost. Seen the doctor last night and she wont give me Metformin while im trying to fall pregnant because you cant just stop taking it, you need to be eased off it slowly, and you cant take it while youre pregnant... so i guess its not worth taking at the moment. Im starting a new fitness thingy.. going for 45 minute walks everyday, 2 minutes walking, 1 minute...

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Ok so last night was HELL! All day yesterday i had the sweats, the shakes, chills, stomach cramps, nausea, angry, sad, moody.. it was hard. I couldnt sleep untill about 6am the following morning, and i slept till about 12 in the afternoon. I havent eaten much and my stomach feels empty all the time. Last night i was thinking omg i cant do this.. it was one of the hardest times in my life. Then i started telling myself I CONTROL MY OWN MIND.. So i wrote that down on paper and stuck it on my wall.....

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So today is my last day of smoking weed. I have been a heavy smoker for years now and I can feel and see the affects it is having on me. I cant concentrate anymore, i dont know how to deal with feelings and emotions, i dont know how to live a "straight" life. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life.. No more drugs, no more bad food, no more bad thoughts... everything negative is gone. Its time for me to shine, Its time to start respecting my body, start listening to it instead...

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