I think I've developed an obsession..
Posted 07-07-2008 at 12:00 AM by PrincessHeart
I need to get this off my chest.. I'm 23 and unmarried, not TTC yet. But those of you who are, i don't know how you deal with it.I'm terrified already.
I feel like telling anyone I know about this would make me look really stupid.. as in "why are you worrying about this now?"
I don't know if this level off worry is normal before you even want to try and have children.
I don't know if it's just some sort of unhealthy fixation, but I already have major anger and jealousy issues when every second person you know has some "good news".
My 20 year old cousin I was really close to is pregnant.. I don't even want to talk to her any more. I'm so selfish.
All of my cousins around my age have children. They did it very young because they wanted to. Just because they felt ready.
Even though my boyfriend and I want to be married & secure before trying anything like this, I'm so jealous of them.
And lately it's been on my mind every day. Worry that it will never be me, to the point of tears. And then I feel guilty for being upset about something I probably shouldn't.
I'm not ready, so why won't it go away?
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 |  Hey girl!!! I know what you are going through. I was obessed with it as soon as I found out I had it. I looked at woman like they were so lucky and some that took it for granted. I would get angry and angry at myself for having it. I am sorry you feel this way, you are not alone. I think, if you are like me, you are scared once you do try, it won't happen. I've felt that way til this past april, wasn't ttc but didn't prevent it. I just had a miscarraige in May, but I do thank God for showing me that I can get pregnant in the first place. Just have faith, things will work out. ::::hugs:::: |
Posted 07-07-2008 at 12:18 AM by Asherlexie  |
| |  yeah, I am scared. But I'm also trying to stop being so worried about something that still remains only a potential (however likely) problem for me, and a very real problem for others. It just feels selfish. Thanks for responding  |
| Posted 07-08-2008 at 02:58 AM by PrincessHeart |
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