There are days/moments when I feel like I just cant handle it any longer. I read about pregnancies, hear about children, etc. and it just breaks me.
I hate how I look like a woman, think like a woman, but dont feel 100% like a woman because I dont ovulate on my own like a "real" woman does. I can only imagine this is what altered pets feel like, if they're aware of it.
I hate hearing about all these people who get pregnant w/o trying and then complain about it like it's some kind of disease to have a child. If people are so anti-children, why arent THEY the ones plagued with infertility? Why must women who are so ready to be mothers the ones dealing with this all?
I know I'm not the only one who feels this way... I'm having one of my break down days and have no where else to go... I know someone here will "get" me.
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~Our son is due January 17, 2010~
Never give up. And never, under any circumstances, face the facts. ~Ruth Gordon
Just so you know, plenty of women here "get you". I have been ttc for 18mon and I understand exactly the feeling you have. It's like you just want to shake the world and scream. Somedays (although I am quite religious) I want to just look at God and say... hello?! Are you missing something? You cont to allow preg in drug addicts and women who are just going to abort them... I am here... ready and willing to carry a child!! And other times, I am okay. What you are feeling is completely normal. But I know... that doesn't make it any easier!
Hugs,
Mandy
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I know exactly how you feel and i want to let you know that your not alone. I have come to realize that I will never get pregnant and I work in a ob/gyn and see pregnant people and kids all day and they come in there all pregnant reaking of cigerrette smoke and stuff like that and they want #'s to abortion clinics it makes me want to cuss them out. I hope things get better for you and i am so sorry i am here if you ever need someone to talk to.
MY thoughts exactly, I do not understand why women who don't want kids can lay up and give birth to them every 9 months, I guess I never will understand, you are not alone.. there are times where I just want to give up, but I know that I can't, having a baby is something I've dreamed about my entire life and one day my dream WILL come true, and yours will, and everybody on this boards dream will come true... Good Luck to you hun
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Hun,I know just what u r talking abt!!
(((HUGS)))
hope my cysters can help each other out of our gloomy thoughts,& fill each other wid courage.....I derive a lot of strength fm my cysters,coz there is always a ray of light at the end of every tunnel,no matter how long it is....thats what keeps me going on all those days when I just wanna give up every sane thought & just cry my heart out!!
Lucinda~ As you know, I had one today! LOL Yes, I completely understand. And you're completely normal for having them. We're always here for you, we all feel the same way at one point or another. (((HUGS)))
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DH Matt ~ 39
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TTC for 5 years...never pregnant.
Hoping for a miracle...
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I was having an awful day yesterday trying to find a new doctor and all of that stuff.. but I woke up today thinking "today is a new day"... and still couldnt get the doctor stuff figured out.. but thats okay.. Tomorrow is a new day again.
Lucinda
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Never give up. And never, under any circumstances, face the facts. ~Ruth Gordon
You're right...one day closer to your BFP! Try to stay positive, but I know it's hard. You just have to allow yourself to feel these things as they come. Trying to fight it and stay positive for everyone around you doesn't do any good. I know, I've tried! LOL I hope you get the dr stuff figured out soon!
__________________ Rebecca ~ 35
DH Matt ~ 39
Married 11-20-04
TTC for 5 years...never pregnant.
Hoping for a miracle...
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Oh, my God, I thought I was cracking up last night but I'm not alone *weeping again.* We're "only" on ttc month 2 (although I haven't had normal periods for 2 years), and it's already heartbreaking and depressing. I got AF last night and about had a nervous breakdown. We just found out DH does have a male factor too. I wonder all the time what I've done wrong, why can't we just function? We're kind, honest people--why do all the crackheads & child abusers get to have 10 kids (and I work in a DHS hospital and trust me, they do)! I get so angry at myself too--why did I listen to the church or my parents--I should have had a kid at 15 when my hormones still worked, instead of doing the "right thing," (sermon says: wait to find the right partner and build a marriage)! WHO CARES!! Oh, I am angry with myself. And some days I feel nothing else I do or have done in my life means anything at all.
To boot, we are 100% out of pocket because we live in a worthless unmandated state and things just seem so hopeless sometimes.
But I see my doctor Friday, and he always seems to make me feel better.
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Break down days (while TTC) 
