Ibelong2hoss

I am so freakin' depressed. I have not been able to get out of bed for 4 days. My husband is an OTR Truck Driver and did not make it home this long weekend. I feel like I am the ugliest woman on earth. I fear that I could cross the edge, I just lie in bed and think my life insurance money will help pay off the mortgage, he would be so much better off without me. My Lupron injections seem to be making me even more depressed.

Deep down, I don't think I could go through with it, but I sure think about it often.

S.
(Not feeling like a survivor today)

Lauriern25

Hey there. Came across your post - You have to force yourself out of that bed. I've had weeks like that. Since i've been religously taking my thyroid pills & gloucophage - things have been much better. What's keeping you down??? Hang in there..
-laurie

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PatioPS

Please don't think like that...I know how you feel, and I have been in your spot..But just remember, something that you may have (it sounds like you have husband who you care about and worry about, and likely feels the same about you) may be something that someone else is wishing to have.

I know that it is hard, but please try to pull yourself out of this.
I am 31 and not married, and some days I am so lonely I can barely stand it. Today is one of those days. But I find that getting some outside interests (as hard as that is sometimes) really helps. Call a friend that you have not seen in a while, and go out to lunch. Maybe look into pursuing therapy (it really does help if you can find the right one). Keep a journal, write a list of 100 things that you are thankful for...A lot of these ideas are pretty cliche, but let me tell you some of them do work

My mom always told me that exercise would help, and I thought that she was crazy...but last year, I was in so deep I could not see my way out, and I started walking a few miles every day, and it truly does help! And I would usually be the last person to admit that my mom was right :-)

So please keep your chin up...and feel free to PM me if you ever want to "talk" or vent or whatever!!!
Patt

Mazarin

The Journel is a great idea, I love writing!

SurrenderedCyster

Hey there, just wanted to tell you I have felt this way before, and I feel for you. I would be bummed if my DH was an OTR truck driver too, try to think of it, as ok, the holiday is over, and keep connected with people whether here or where you are. Keep in mind the next time you will see him. It's a dark place I know, just sending you happy thoughts and we're all here for you.
Are you taking the Lupron injections for the endo? That stuff doen't help women's moods sometimes, but when you need it, what can you do? My friends and I call it "Satan in a syringe", because it is so potent. I chose not to take it, but I know a nurse who is on it, and she's doing fantastic in all ways.
Are you taking an antidepresant? Or have you ever been on one?
Hope you start to feel better soon.
Take care.