I really don't know how much more I can handle with my life. Things just keep building up. I'm sitting here at my desk crying and trying not to so I can make it through yet another day. I just don't care anymore. It never seems to get any better. All I do anymore is sleep, it's the only escape I can find. I feel bad for my husband because I come home from work, sleep for a few hours, and then go back to bed after 2 hours or so. I just don't have the energy to deal with his problems anymore. I don't think he's ever going to get a new job and I really don't know how we're going to pay the bills anymore. Sometimes it just seems like he really doesn't care about any of it. I know we just have different ways of dealing with things, but sometimes I just want to scream and yell and cry. I just don't care anymore. What's the point. You work hard, do the right thing, try and live a good life and you just get pushed down over and over again. I would love to just run away and not deal with it anymore, but I don't even have the money for the gas! I just needed to vent a little this morning. Thanks for listening.
Totally understand. Sometimes I just hate that DH and I do things totally different. Somedays life is great other times I am like WHY did I do this to myself.
I am on lots of anti-depressants and that seems to help me manage my moods better. In the long run I love DH. I just get frustrated with our life.
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m/c June 2007
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(((hugs))) I do know how you feel... Life can be very hard somestimes and there are times that I feel like running away from it all too. Have you spoken with your doctor about how you are feeling? I just hope that you are feeling better. Let us know how you are doing.
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I hear you cyster, I hear you. I feel the same way a lot of the time.
Are you able to get counselling/therapy? I find it does help me when I get to the point you're at. But I know that it's difficult for some people to get help with the financial side of things, I'm fortunate enough to get counselling through work for free.
At least you know you always have us to come and talk to.
I totally understand your situation although I'm not married. I have been out of work for over a year now. Job hunting is really hard with the economy being what it is today. I have been on so many interviews and nothing. I don't know your husband but I'm sure that this is not easy for him either. Women tend to worry and show their emotions more than men. I'm like you, all I do is sleep, cry and worry about my bills. I had to move back with my parents because I could not pay my rent. I have bill collectors calling me all the time. I know that things seem really bad right now but it will get better. When I'm feeling really depressed, I try to do something to take my mind off my troubles (I know that is easier said than done) like volunteering at the local Humane Society or the domestic violence shelter. When I do that I realize that my problems are not as bad as what others are going through. Please know that you are not alone. Take care of yourself and I'm here if you ever need to talk.
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Age~37
Symptoms~started in 1985 Dx~PCOS in 2004 (finally!!)
Symptoms~~Obesity, Severe Hairloss (top of my head), Excessive Facial and Body Hair, Acne, GERD, High Blood Pressure, Type II Diabetes, Hypothyroidism, Depression, Anxiety, Etc.
Medications~~Metformin 2000mg, Byetta, Synthroid, Zocor, Zoloft, and many others
~~~Be yourself and not someone elses idea of what you should be~~~
Okay, so I'm feeling better, for today. I'm so glad I found this website, what an incredible bunch of women you all are. I have my follow up exam with my ob/gyn on Wednesday. I'm a little nervous to see what she says, but I'm really just trying to take it one day at a time. I'll let everyone know how it goes. Thank you so much for all the support, kind words, and prayers.
((((hugs))))I know how you feel. I go through spells like that a lot--the sleeping, the crying, and the wondering if it's ever going to get better. It may not seem like it now, but it does get better, or at least easier to deal with.
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PCOS Diagnosed Nov 02'
Bi Polar Diagnosed Feb 08'
Current meds~ Lithium&Celexa
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I'm glad you're feeling better. I know what you mean. I'm not in the exact same situation, but I am in a similar one. I work Monday-Friday 8-5 and right now my BF isn't working. He has a seasonal job one that allows him to take winters off and when I get home I just get so mad when he looks at me and asks "Whats for dinner?". We have three kids and every night it is the same. Whay can't he have dinner ready for me when I get home and support me since I do have to work outside the home to pay bills. We share them and he does pay his share, but I'm jealous that he doesn't have to work all the time like me.
(((((hugs))))) too. I am glad you feel comfortable talking to us. I haven't been on long but I instantly realized that everyone here is "real" and you know what? thay *do* get it! So take comfort here. Talk all you want about it. For what it's worth I've been really depressed, nonfunctional myself and you've got to realize you are worth it. You know. You are. I ended up trying meds nad it worked for me, eventually I was able to taper off. It's different for everyone but just do your best and you'll make it through!!!
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