Hey, I'm Sammy, and I was diagnosed with PCOS about 6 months ago, but have been experiencing symtoms for a few years before that. Recently it's been my mood thats been affected. I'm horribly irritable, and the person thats mostly on the receiving end of this is my boyfriend. He tries his hardest, love him, but he struggles to cope with my awful temper, and sometimes tells me he cant cope with me anymore, and that's when it all kicks off. It's like I see red, and thats it. I cry like I don't know what, to the point I'm struggling to breathe, I can't see any point in my life anymore and wish I was dead, I get uncontrollably angry, and more than anything I hate myself. Don't get me wrong, right now I don't feel like I'd die without my boyfriend, its just when I have these mad episodes that I can't think of anything other than the fact I need him, and I don't know what I'd do without him. The rest of the time I'm pretty normal, though I get down every now and again, and I find it harder to be happy about things. Is this normal for PCOS sufferers or is there something wrong with me? I can be horrible, and I don't know why. At the time it's like I can't see any other opinion but mine, and there's no telling me until I've calmed down. I don't blame my boyfriend for not wanting to be with me anymore! Just wondered if anyone else has gone through this and knows of a way to stop the mentalness?! xx
*hugs* It IS normal for PCOSers, so take heart in that. It's depressing to find out something is wrong with you, but you can deal with it. Have you tried talking to your doctor about therapy or an antidepressant/antianxiety medication? If you can't afford that, plain old almonds are said to enhance a person's mood. Also, it might help to continue to visit here and please, feel free to vent. I found that when I was getting riled up about something, I would have to force myself to stop and take a look at the situation... was is something I NEEDED to be upset over (i.e. picking my battles), could I do anything about what I was mad about, was it really worth my anger, etc? It take a lot of energy to be mad/angry about something, so I try to remember that I need to save it for the really important stuff.
It sounds like you might be having panic attacks, too, which are NEVER fun. But, just remember to breathe and ask yourself if in 20 years, will it REALLY matter what you are upset over? I'm not trying to belittle or condescend you, it's just what helped me. A lot! I was on meds for a while, but eventually got off of them and not a whole lot bothers me now. I take a Zen Buddhist approach to everything and it seems to be working. :-) Everything happens for a reason. *hugs*
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I do know exactly what you're going through. I've been there. I don't know whether or not PCOS is to blame, but it does cause hormones to get out of balance...which in turn could change your mood, etc. About six years ago I thought I was losing my mind. My poor husband was on the receiving end of it, too. It didn't matter what he said to me, I still felt like everyone around me would be better off if I weren't here...like I was a waste of space...unworthy of love. I snapped at the smallest provocation. And, I cried myself to sleep every night for months. Finally, I broke down in tears one day in front of my husband and told him something's really wrong with me. I know the thoughts in my head are ludicrous, but I can't seem to shake it. I made an appointment with my doctor the next morning and she had me take this little test. Turns out I was severely depressed. All of the mood swings, etc. I never associated with depression. I was put on medication and within three/four weeks I became a different person. I hadn't felt that good ever. I could finally think rationally and clearly. I don't know if this is what's happening in your case, but I highly recommend seeing your doctor to rule it out.
Take care!
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There have been points where I thought there was nothing left to live for too, but please don't give up. I kind of know how you feel and I have had boughts with uncontrollable rage. There is no trigger for it really it just comes and goes. It got better when I went to see an endocronologist who really throughly assessed my hormone levels and got me on the right supplements. I also take a supplement called cenitol which seems to even out my mood fairly well if I take it like I am supposed to. Goood luck to you and please feel free to vent anytime.
It wouldn't hurt to see someone about it. It isn't like you can wake up in the morning and decide not to lose your temper or get depressed that day. I talk to a clinical social worker who knows about infertility problems and adoption stress, so she gets the level of stress I am at. And feel free to vent on here. A lot of us have reached that point. I've been close to suicide and divorce. It can get better, I promise.
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I am in the same boat. Did you ever figure anything out Sammy? I am so unhappy with my life and it feels like it just keep getting worse everyday. I just want to run away from myself
Depression, anxiety and mood swings can sometimes be associated with insulin resistance too. I had felt bad for close to a decade but I knew things were out of control for me when I started snapping at people at work and at my friends and family. I wish I had gotten help before I lost my job.
I've been on prozac for a week now and I finally feel better. I didn't think I could ever get help to feel better. I have no medical insurance or job so had accepted I would feel ill and tired forever. But I called a crisis hotline and got free initial treatment and a depression diagnosis. A surprising low cost appointment to my own doctor yesterday not only got my prozac prescription extended but metformin for pcos and ir.
Generics of anti depressants are very low cost and I wish I had known that years ago. After a week on prozac I've stopped having panic attacks and I can feel my depression lessening. I no longer feel irritated with my parents or my boyfriend or friends. I used to get upset when friends called because it was too much to deal with and now having friends makes sense.
You can get help and you can feel better. A month ago I did not believe that but today I have hope.
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DBF 28
Suspected pcos since 2003, Official diagnosis 8/6/2009
Symptoms: Obesity, Insulin Resistance, Major Depressive Disorder, hirsutism, amenorrhea
Meds: Metformin 1000 mg daily, Prozac 20 mg daily
I have gone through the same thing and was treated for depression and anxiety. PCOS depresses me greatly. Everyone was on the recieving end of my bad moods. Talking to my doctor helped. She wanted to do things in steps as not to over medicate me or to see if it could be helped naturally. I am struggling as i want to have a baby and the treaments I have tried have not worked. There is hope, because there are great people on here going through the same things that encourage you that it will get better.
Just remember to see the positive things in your life and surround yourself with people you love and appreciate you the way you are.
__________________ Me-36 DH-36 DD-6 Thin with pcos--My daily regimen: prescription iron, GNC Ultra Mega Vitamins, fish oil, borage oil, dha, walking at least 30 min-1 hr a day, pilates, and doing weights
You know...since I've been on MET, I'm waaaaay less irritable than before. I really used to get in nasty moods for no reasons and poor DH was in the firing line. I can't say for sure it's the MET, but all I know is that my moods have stabilised BIG TIME since being on the MET. I'm almost never irritable or moody now, whereas before it would be constantly moody. And even if I do get moody or irritable...now it kinda passes a lot quicker.
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Sammy...I know exactlly how you feel. But I can say like ZigZag, I started on MET about a week ago and I feel less irritable, probably because my sugar levels are stabilizing. However, I have been taking Paxil for anxiety for years before I was diagnosed with PCOS. My doctors thought it was because I was stressed over starting law school. However, it seems that the PCOS is related significantly to anxiety. Just wondering if anyone out there has had increased anxiety with taking Metformin?
Can't handle it anymore 
