Christian Cysters Coping With Loss - January Edition

Tensei · 01-05-2008, 11:55 PM

This is a thread for all Cysters who have suffered a loss and are looking for some Christian support and fellowship.

We are a small group, but very supportive of each other. Please don't be shy - we all know what you're going through.

We are all continuing from our first thread: Christian Cysters Coping With Loss

Please keep the following mommies and their babies in your prayers:

- flowergrover

- lovepotato (Molly)

- sweetums (Manders)

- Tensei (Bekki)

- PrincessJilly (Jill)

- PJC (Patty)

- sunshine071899 (Laura)

- *Alisha~Lucia* (Alisha)

- StormsDreams

- sandstar (Tiffany)

- uwalcott

- Tresa

- helovesme

- lucyladybug (Lucy)

- Rebecca's Mom (Tricia)

- Promise07

Tensei · 01-05-2008, 11:57 PM

Hey girls! I'm so sorry I've been MIA for so long. I was really struggling through the holidays, and it was very difficult for me to think about not having my babies.

On top of that, my MIL has advanced lung cancer, and that's taken quite a toll on the family. I've been so sad that instead of celebrating a new life, we're worried about the death of another loved one.

Anyway, I promise to try to be around more! It makes me so happy to see so mcny Christian cysters coming together to comfort one another and lift each other up.

uwalcott · 01-06-2008, 02:10 AM

Hi Bekki. I'm so sorry about your MIL. Sometimes during the holidays I think about my best friend's mom, who was like a mother to me when I was in college. She passed away from breast cancer that became lung cancer. She fought for years in order to be with her children and take care of them, and finally got too tired to go on. She was one of the sweetest people I knew and her name was Estelle. She died one year after her brother passed from liver disease.

sandstar · 01-06-2008, 04:18 AM

Bekki, thanks for posting our names and things. That was such a nice thing to see when I opened the thread. It meant a lot to me. I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt. I know all to well the toll that advanced stages of cancer takes on a family. My Nana lost her battle with ovarian cancer the end of July. I will definately be praying for her and your family.

Rebecca's Mom · 01-06-2008, 06:55 PM

Hi Becki- Hope everything goes well with mil, I had a horrible time this year for christmas.

PJC · 01-06-2008, 10:51 PM

Hi Ladies,

I'm still here, too! Things have just been busy lately with work. I started f/t last week and don't get home until usually 7 pm...eat dinner, and hit the hay! Plus I have a cold right now so I'm even more wiped than usual. I've been thinking about you all, though. It seems unfortunately we all have a loved one who suffered through cancer...my dad is going through it right now (kidney). He finally got his meds and started them Friday night. We are hoping and praying that they not only work like they are supposed to, but that they don't give him any bad side effects...it's possible for a stroke, so we have to take his bp every day.

Anyway, I missed church and bible study today. I worked yesterday and when I woke up this morning I just was tired and didn't feel good, plus my tummy was bothering me (still leftover D from the gb surgery). I apparently missed a good bible study, lots of personal sharing and crying today from the girls. I really do like that group.

I think I mentioned before the girl I work with who had an abortion that I sit right next to...she's 19. Of course I was bummed that I am not sitting next to the Christian girl I really liked (and so was she)...we don't even have so much as a break together! Anyway, what are the odds, but I actually like this 19 yr old girl, she's pretty comical and actually kind of a lovable kid. She's already lumped me in with the "older" crowd there, lol, typical for someone only 19 yrs old.

Anyway, sorry no personals, just wanted to check in and let you all know I am here and thinking of ya's. I usually read during the week even if I don't post so I am always lurking...usually in the morning.

Hugs to all...

uwalcott · 01-07-2008, 12:30 AM

Hi Patty it is good to hear from you again. Rebecca's Mom I'm sorry you had a hard holiday. I think it's been rough on most of us unfortunately.

*child mentioned*
So last night I had been planning on going to church today. It's been a while (months!) since I've actually gone to church and I really wanted to. When I woke up Elisa had had a huge loose stool all over her seat and the floor. Probably was just the Miralax that helps her with her constipation, but I didn't want to take any chances. Last time I visited church with my friend she had a huge accident there. So I stayed home. Plus I was too tired to go. I was up till 3:00 am last night online. I was reading stories of special needs children and looking up special needs adoption. I really feel called to do it but I realized last night that I am not emotionally ready to handle another child with major issues. Maybe if God gives me strength later on in life.

Well, I tested again today, I knew I shouldn't have blown the 13 dollars. BFN and then --I got some satisfacton by tearing the test apart! It was quite difficult to dismember a ClearBlue Easy Digital, but I tore the blasted thing to shreds. Dude it didn't even look like a pg test when I was done with it. And the stinking "not pregnant" sign disappeared from the screen.

It felt so good!

I have been so sad lately and even playing with Elisa and the constant BD'ing is doing nothing for my mood. I think it's probably because my due date is approaching. The other day I caught a glimpse of my fat disgusting belly in the window and I poked it out a little bit more. I looked seven months pregnant, which is exactly what I would be right now. I almost f'in cried.

Ah well. At least I started working out. For the past two days. Yesterday I overdid it because I had a cough for nearly two hours after I was finished.

Hope I'm not developing asthma on top of everything else!

PJC · 01-11-2008, 10:56 PM

Hi Ladies,

I'm still here! Not much going on except work. It's still going pretty much ok. I had two really cranky customers this week...one lady who yelled at me day before yesterday for putting her on hold for too long and another yesterday who screamed at me because I was getting what she was saying. Then she hung up on me, and called back...and guess who she got on the phone...me!!! That is a luck of the draw thing with e/o working there answering phones (it's a big call center). She recognized me and told me she wanted someone else and naturally I was only too happy to transfer her to customer service! LOL The one thing I think I really love about my job are the old ladies. They can be soooo comical sometimes and I really enjoy talking to them.

Anyway...

UW-Sorry about the bfn but glad you got frustrations out on the test!! LOL I need to do some exercise...I realized I am sitting all day...probably getting even less exercise than when I wasn't working. Plus I think it might help me sleep better or something, been having trouble once I get up to pee in the am. I hate when that happens.

Woohoo! I have this w/e off! Maybe a trip to WM tomorrow!! You know, now that I have a steady paycheck!! LOL

Off to bed!

How's e/o doing? It's quiet around here!

uwalcott · 01-13-2008, 12:46 AM

Hi Patty I hope things get better at work for u. I used to work at a call center too, selling Saks 5th ave clothes from catalog, I too loved the old ladies. They'd talk for HOURS if you let them! I found out so many things about the lives of rich old women who wear fur and cashmere every day...LOL

I am actually feeling pretty good right now b/c I got my appt with an RE for the 21st. I am also taking soy and cinnamon and my met of course, in hopes that this will be THE MONTH.

I don't know what thread to hang out in so I jump from thread to thread. I'm a mommy, and Im still grieving loss of #2, and I'm TTC. The only thread I'm not in right now is PG and hopefully that will be soon!

lucyladybug · 01-14-2008, 12:44 AM

May I ask what met if used for? I keep reading it being mentioned but I am not sure what it is meant for.

Rebecca's Mom · 01-14-2008, 02:51 AM

insulin resistance, but it also helps bring periods on and helps you ovulate

lucyladybug · 01-14-2008, 11:35 AM

Since I don't have IR, should I assume that met would not help me? I take provera to bring up on aunt flo. I have an appointment with my RE this morning and it is a question I wanted to discuss with him but I always look for answers here first.

Rebecca's Mom · 01-14-2008, 02:16 PM

you should ask him if you should take it,

lucyladybug · 01-14-2008, 03:39 PM

Our RE today said he doesn't suggest me going on met becuase I didn't respond to clomid so I more than likely wouldn't respond to met.

Rebecca's Mom · 01-14-2008, 04:17 PM

ok thats the way it is wonder why you don't respond to clomid...