Christian Cysters Gaining Friends 2009 Summer Edition - Page 2

litena79 · 06-17-2009, 04:51 AM

Hey TxsBelle830. Thank you for taking the time to respond, that really means a lot to me. I am hanging in there and trusting God that He knows the perfect timing. I know exactly how you feel to want to be a mommy so bad. I am right there with you and I want you to know that I will be praying for you too. How is the clomid going? I know that I did not respond to it at all. My doctor had to put me on repernex and that made me have a lot of eggs. Just make sure that you listen to your body because its very easy to hyperstimulate and that sucks. God bless you and your husband.

TxsBelle830 · 06-17-2009, 01:28 PM

Ya know, I'm not 100% sure it's working for me. My doc is not monitoring me like I hear most other women say they are. But I know my doc is just trying to save us money and stress. He wants me to come in after this round...either because it worked or because it didn't work. I'm charting my temp to see if I can pinpoint an ovulation day.
I'm trying to stay strong in the faith and trust God and believe He has a perfect plan for me and my husband. But I've got to tell you, it's really hard.

Tresa · 06-17-2009, 01:56 PM

I am going to have to figure out why I am not getting post notifications!
through my email.
Lite - I am so sorry for your suffering. I know a lot of us here can understand what you have been through. A lot of us have similar stories. So, we can really understand your heartache and pain. I could never understand why God allowed me to go through 10 years of heartache and struggles. I started to get mad at God. I always was told to have faith. I guess I look back and I wrapped myself up in what I wanted and needed and felt I had to have that I never sat and thought maybe God's plan is far better than my desires. I got to a place in my life that I can truly say I understood about prayer and what prayer actually meant through God and "FAITH". It changed my life. I had no where else to go but give up and have "FAITH" Turned out to be the best choice I made. I totally just let my life go and trusted in God's plan. I took so many years away of my life because of my personal desires. Which is not a bad thing but I let it become a God, so to speak. I thought about it everyday. I lost my 20's! The youngest part of my adult years and I lost it obessession. I didn't think I did, but I did. God has this whole map of our life and answers only what he thinks is in our best interest. He can see the whole picture. Unfortunatley, we cannot.
But he loves us and he doesn't not give us what we want to be cruel, but becasue we asked him for something and will give it to us in his time and in a way he knows we will be a better parent.
I have seen people like myself take 10 yrs to have a child, some end up being a foster parent or adopt when it is something they didn't think they could ever do or want. And now to see them with their foster or adoptive child, it's like they see this is what God meant for them to have and they cannot see themselves without these children. They all tesitfy why God had them wait or why God chose for them to adopt. His plan always has meaning with love and his best interest for you and your life. It's how we handle that, whether it makes the journey impossible to bear or taking the struggles and letting God make you grow from them into a better person and to be a better mother someday. I have learned. If you do not go through struggles, how can you have compassion for anything. How can you grow, how can you learn.

I personally do not always enjoy the suffering God allows me to go through, but I have become a much better person becasue of it. But I do know God will teach me from that something he needs me for in the future. To be there for someone. Just like you and these ladies. I do believe he brought me here to this sight for that. To be there and have those be there for me in his Name - For him becasue of him.

I am so glad you found us. This thread is starting back up, so it may be slow and I am not getting notices like I usually do, so I may have to log on before i can get back to you all.

TxsBelle - sorry, I got your PM. I have been swamped this week, well for a while. I will call Tricia and let her now. Okay. Sorry it took me so long!

Kids are havng probs with each other I better go.

Sorry I missed the rest of you. Get back tonight after the kids go to bed.

litena79 · 06-22-2009, 03:46 AM

Hey Tresa,

Thanks so much. Your post really did speak to me because that is exactly how I felt. I did wast a lot of my twentys just so focused on having kids, even when we really coudn't afford it financually. I also know what you mean when people say keep the faith because for me I will never give up my faith in Him. He is the one who I have ran to so many times when I felt that no one understood me or knew what I was possiblly going through. I felt so alone, even with my husband because he had his own son. People who do not have PCOS do not know how hard it is to concieve. People say, oh it will happen as soon as you stop trying. Which through God anything is possible, but people with PCOS do not normally ovulate without meds. I am just extactic that God led me to you guys. Not only do you have PCOS but you are sisters in Christ. That is so cool.
love Lite

TxsBelle830 · 06-22-2009, 04:32 PM

Hi ladies!

How was y'alls weekend? Mine was pretty crazy. We're leaving saturday to move my mom from Montana back to Texas and then we're also moving when we get back. So we've been moving furniture and packing.

Just wanted to check in and see how you all are doing!

TxsBelle830 · 07-08-2009, 12:05 PM

Wow. It's been quiet in here. Hope everyone is ok! Finally getting settled in a little.

Just wanted to pop in and see how everyone is doing!!!

litena79 · 07-12-2009, 07:42 AM

Hey ladies. It's me Lite. Just wanted to say hi and hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July. Anyways, as I was browsing thruough some of the videos I came accross Nerida from Astralia. She has a book out called "Gods Plan for Pregnancy." Her testimony is awsome. I haven't got it yet because they only sell in on Amozon, but it sounds really good. It's basicly scriptures and what the bible says about pregnancy.

TDoern · 07-13-2009, 01:14 AM

I'm hoping you ladies don't mind me joining. I'm going through a very rough patch in my life right now.

I can honestly say that 2009 thus far has been the hardest year of my life. In January I lost my Papa (grandpa), in February we found out I was pregnant after 8 years of trying and praying for a baby (it was a blessing at the time), in March my baby brother was laid off from his job, April my older brother, in May I ended up hospitalized due to a bowel obstruction and herniation (my insides were twisted, bent and in the wrong places?), on June 30th my back porch caught on fire from (we think) hubbies smoker overheating, on the fourth of july we lost our baby to incompetent cervix at 22 weeks, then right after I was induced to deliver knowing it would kill Christopher hubby got called down to the ER by the cops, someone had broken into his car and stolen his stereo.

I guess I'm hoping to find support, and hope. Right now I'm so angry with God for what He's done to my family there just aren't words for it. I couldn't make myself go to service this morning with hubby because I felt like a hypocrite. I just couldn't bring myself to sing His praises when all I want from Him is answers. How do you deal with that?

I've always been good at forgiveness, and always known that there is a reason for everything. I always felt that if God could forgive someone then I should be able to as well. I just can't see myself forgiving God for this. It just feels like it's been one big punch after another. You know that saying "God won't give you more than you can handle"? I guess sometimes I wish He didn't have so much faith in me.

Sorry for rambling... like I said I'm just hoping to find others who can help me get through this, and people who can help me find a way to not be so angry at God. The only people I can see helping me through this are people who believe as well.

litena79 · 07-13-2009, 07:18 AM

Hi Tammy. My name is Lite and I have been trying to concieve for 8 years as well. I had my second miscarriage this past December and it was really hard. I know what you are going through. Its easy to fall into a deep depression, but you have to remember that our help comes from Jesus. Jesus did not cause this. Satan is the root of all evil. In fact John 10:10 state the he comes to steal, kill, and destroy. Thats exactly what he did with your baby boy. Now he is trying to do it with your faith and then possibly your marriage. I know its hard to turn to God right now, but don't base it on your emotions. Sometimes we just have to go beyond our emotions and reach for God because that is where the healing will come from. You have to stand your ground with the enemy and take back what is rightfully yours and believe that God will bless you again with a child that the enemy cannot take from you. I will be praying for you and stand by you. You will get through this with God by your side.
love Lite

litena79 · 07-13-2009, 09:09 AM

hey Tammy. Its me Lite again. I visited a web site called newlifeministries.com.au and there is an audio clip by Gillian Robison who went through the exact thing as you. She miscarried at 22 wks and was told that she needed her cervix stiched. Anyway she talks about victory over loss. Its a really good testimony.

xMBx · 07-13-2009, 01:06 PM

Hey everyone. I'm 19 years old, I have an amazing boyfriend/future husband who supports me through everything. He is in school to be a youth pastor, and we spend a lot of time praying for a healing!

I get discouraged cause I feel that God isnt healing me and isnt hearing me. when i KNOW he is. and I know that God wants us to surrender it all to him, and I feel like i'm giving 110% of my faith out to Him... I just want to make friends along this journey!

TxsBelle830 · 07-14-2009, 04:37 PM

Tammy - My heart goes out to you. I have been trying to have a baby for 5 years and have also had a miscarriage. While I certainly don't have all the answers, all I can say is keep the faith, have a "venting seesion" with God and just get it all off your chest. While He already knows how you feel, it can be healing both emotionally and spiritually to just let it all out. I'm hear if you ever need to talk or cry or just be mad!

xMBx - Welcome to the group. I'm sure you will make some really great friends on here!

tinah1 · 07-14-2009, 08:29 PM

May I join? I am a former Jehovah's Witness, but by the grace of God, was saved and have been a Christian for over 15 years ago. My DH and I have been married for 15 year in the end of this month. We had been ttc for nearly 10 years before conceiving my dd via IVF. Since then we have tried two more FET's, cloimd, Femara, but have gotten #2 yet. My DD has been praying for a baby brother for nearly a year now. We can't afford anymore treatments, so I am looking into foster adoption. I would love to have one more child. I have alway wanted 3 children, but at my age 36, I will settle for for two.
I too, have a hard time with Church. After much time searching, we have found a great Chruch. I love the service and worship, but can't seem to get into Sunday School. I just can't seem to make any friends. We are in a large Church and have tried many different classes. I am a pretty shy person, so I guess I come across as an unfriendly person. Our Church actually offers a Womens bible studies, but they are during my work hours, so I don't get to attend.
I am excited to get to know you ladies.

litena79 · 07-17-2009, 04:47 AM

Hi Tina, my name is Lite and I am new to this site as well. I really feel that this site is a God sent. It is awsome that you were blessed with one child, but don't give up on having another. God will bless you again. Just keep up the faith. If you don't mind me aking, what is fermara? I have been trying for eight years and still waiting to have my blessings. I have tryed IVF, Clomid, IUI. Anyway, welcome. Stay strong in the Lord.
Lite

tinah1 · 07-17-2009, 09:17 PM

Lite-thanks for the encouragement. Femara is similar to Clomid, with less side effect. Some Drs. say it works better. How many IVF cycles did you have?