Christian Cysters: How do you deal?

jschmidt · 05-09-2003, 12:15 AM

I was diagnosed about a month ago with PCOS, after a year of anovulation and mild symptoms. I did get pregnant in February miraculously, and then had a miscarriage at about 8 weeks. I have been a Christian for 8 years now, and no trials have ever been this hard or long. How do you all deal with this on a daily basis? I have days where I can thank God for making me stronger, and I realize that His will is perfect, but then there are days when I am so angry at Him for doing this to me. And I truly believe that this is for my good, but it is so hard to put that into practice. I am blessed with a wonderful family and great friends who allow me to express how I feel, but it is still so hard. When I got pregnant I thought all of my prayers had been answered, only to find out that the worst was just beginning. I guess I am just looking for Christian advice on how to deal with the sorrow, anguish, anger, and grief, while still growing in my relationship with God. I don't want to suffer through all of this for nothing, I want to grow and learn more about Him. Thanks

Julie

Courtney0126 · 05-09-2003, 06:41 PM

Julie, I know that this must be so difficult for you. I can't even imagine the pain and disappointment you must have felt with your miscarriage. I can't tell you how to deal with it, but I can tell you that the Lord feels and understands your pain, and he is so crazy about you. He loves you immensely. I can also tell you that I am thankful for the struggles I have gone through in my life, because it has always been in the times of struggle that my faith and my soul have grown. It has been in those times when all I could do was turn to God that I have grown close to him. Cry out to the Lord. Tell him what you're feeling. He knows, but I think he'd like for you to tell him. Sometimes we don't feel like praying, but in those times he longs for us to just crawl into his arms and cry with him and let him hold us. God's purposes are perfect. Take comfort in the fact that your baby now rests in his arms, and that he is a perfect father. You can rest in his arms too.
I have also found that, while bad things come into our lives, the Lord has always put women in my life who were going through the same struggles I had been through, and he has allowed me to minister to them. That is such a blessing. The Lord can take a horrible thing and turn it into something wonderful. His power is so great over the forces of evil in this world. We just have to remember who is on our side.
Also, if it is his will, the Lord can heal your body of this syndrome. Nothing is too great for him. Chronic illnesses break apart before him. Begin praying with your husband, your family and friends, that the Lord will heal your body of PCOS if it is his will. I said a prayer for you just now. The power the Lord has given us through prayer is also great.

God bless you,
Courtney