Well, for me - my faith is what gets me through. I trust in the Lord as I ttc my first for almost 4 years. Easy to say, right? I have to laugh at myself, because I could have posted the same thing many times.
One thing for you sweetie - you are looking at the BFN's as punishment or that he's doing it to make you unhappy? I know I do at times. But, you have to remember that He knows better than us when the time is right. He could be using this to bring you closer to him.
I will keep you in my prayers - I have felt the same way and know how you feel. I go up and down. You have two beautiful kids by the way -
I guess I'm just trying to offer support and understanding (with some prayers for you to get a bfp).
Taralynn
For Christian TTC-ers..... 
