SheriKCMO

Sorry, had to ramble a bit.

I went to my support group last night for the first time in several weeks. I really wanted to but couldn't get away during these first several weeks of Duncan's life. That group has really helped me to have a place where I feel normal and know that everyone in the room knows how much my daughter means to me and all of that kind of thing. We meet twice a month, and many of the women or couples have been coming consistently for a while. I have been pleased to see progress as everyone comes to grips with their losses and looks ahead bravely.

Well, two of the other gals are pregnant now, and I'm very happy for them and just wanted to say that here. It seems so strange to be at a point where I don't feel jealous of another woman for a pregnancy, nor do I feel scared that she will lose it, nor any other negative thought. I am ecstatic that they have taken this chance again and will most likely have great outcomes this time. Strange feeling. It also gave hope to some of the new gals there, as they are in the stage where it seems impossible to carry to term and that everything is doomed.

One reason I had to go to the meeting is that on the news yesterday afternoon was a brief story that a baby Duncan's age, a month and a half, was found dead by her mother yesterday morning in the crib (I assume SIDS). She lived close to me. I just felt a black cloud blow in above us or something. Going to the group makes me feel grounded, like I can think rationally again. I know that our chances are very slim of finding Duncan dead in his bed, but it hit close to home, you know? I will be glad when I don't jump so easily over things that remind me of loss.
Thanks for listening,
Sheri

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Hi Sheri,
First of all, a big (((HUG))) to you. I am glad that you were able to go to your group meeting last night. It sounds as if it is really helpful, especially with hearing the news you did about the baby. And of course hearing about that would hit close to home, you experienced something that nobody should ever have to go through. I am sure it brought up your own loss, and the feeling of "what if," since unfortunately, you and your DH have lived through a similar tragedy.

Be gentle with yourself tonight and hold your sweet blessing extra close~

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~Traci~

{{{{HUGS}}}} Sheri. I'm sorry to hear about that baby. I'm sure you know that you will never stop worrying now that you have Duncan even if it's not over a pg. It will be one thing or another, it goes along w/ parenting! It's great that you have a place to go that grounds you and makes you feel better

Sorry I haven't been around much lately, I've been swamped in paperwork and shopping!

TTYL
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*Clarissa*

Sheri, How sad about that baby. I do not blame you at all for going to your support group. It's great that you have it when you need it. You have been here for me so many times, I bet you are someone that the girls and couples in your group with a fresh loss, and those whom are pregnant can look up to, I know that I do. I see where you are and hope and pray that I will be there one day too.

I worry about Noah all the time when I see and hear about losses like that. I know after my own losses, that I clung to him. I was sad/am sad about lossing my babies, and I think that makes me doubly thankful for my little boy. Now go give that little Duncan a big hug! And thanks for being here when we need you.

VivC

((Sheri))

If it makes you feel any better, I have a friend, who has never had a loss, with a 9 months old. She freaks out everytime she hears about a baby dying, too. So maybe that's just a Mommy thing.

I'm glad you were able to get to your support group, and I'm sure the others there were so thankful you could make it - you give them hope for a brighter future, just like you do for us here.

Give Duncan a hug for me!

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saluki_fan

Sheri, I agree with the above posters...once we are done worrying about a PG, then we get to worry about the child for the rest of its life! I'm 32 years old and my parents still worry about me (and my 30-year-old brother and my 27-year-old sister!) And my 91-year-old grandma still worries about my mom!

I'm glad that you found comfort in your support group and so sorry about the loss of the baby that you mentioned above.

Hey, how did you find your support group? I think I've finally worked up the nerve to attend an in-person support group meeting.

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Sheri

My counselling sessions saved my bacon. I'm so glad you have this support. I'm sorry to hear about the baby you mentioned. Such news is always going to spark recognition and memories. Hopefully over time we will all feel less jumpy when we hear about loss. Hopefully we will get less raw.

Hugs from the UK.

Stephx