Confused

hoping4help · 01-01-2005, 09:26 PM

Boy I'm just a bundle of positivity. I'm so sorry, I am just so depressed. I think I can post after being here for a few days here.
I have been on every antidepressant known to man axcept the MAOI's. I'm getting worse with all this endo and PCOS Met treatment going on, I'm so afraid I'm going to do some damage to my organs. I mentioned in another post all I have done is cry today and prayed prayed prayed, but I'mnot sure honestly if I can do this anymore.

I have depression coming on worse AGAIN-thought I was over medication to help. My stomach is killing me. I never have tried Wellbutrin, maybe I can ask my psychiatrist about it, I just hate to add more meds to my body.
I was raped at a young age and repeatedly moleted until age 9.
I sufferred A LOT of emtional and verbal abuse, rejection, you name it.
I don't want to be a downer so I'll stop. I'm just in a bad spot and need to try so hard to hang on.

This is not a good place to be.
Thanks for reading if you did.
h4h

TickledPink · 01-01-2005, 09:40 PM

I say go talk to your doctor asap, there is no need for you to be feeling this way for this long!!

I REALLY hope things start looking up very soon!

Best of luck!

FuzzyWuzzy · 01-02-2005, 04:05 PM

((((hoping for help)))))

things will get better!

reading your post brings me back to where I was some months ago. some days it felt like the day couldn't end fast enough. please remember that every new day is a new opportunity to change your way of thinking, which *will* change the way you're feeling.

what have you done to help yourself or bring you some joy? you'd be surprised how the smallest change can have a large effect and lead to other positive changes.

think of what makes you happy... write them down and attempt to do the ones most accessible to you. reach out to friends and loved ones. join a support group, or is possible, start a support group.

don't focus on negative issues... *zoom out* and look at the larger picture...

I could go on and on because I've been where you're at and I know how much it hurts.

Please know that things will get better, most likely when you let go of some negativity and when you least expect it.

Feel free to write to me and keep your cysters updated!

xoxo