Lately, I have had complete mood swings but usually of only happiness into sadness and it can happen as quickly as 4 mins. Like tonight I was smiling, laughing and hyper suddenly I stop and get to thinking and suddenly I'm crying. I find myself crying about 2 to 3 times a day.. just 30 minute sessions or sometimes they can go on for about 4 hours. I am not sure what to do anymore, I can't stop myself from thinking. My doctor won't put me on any medication until my blood pressure has gone down and I have tried therapy. I just feel so... lost and just depressed.
I am 16, I know I have had problems growing up from CPS being in my life often, abuse, moving constantly and just each year I have something big give me a blow to the heart but then the one thing I ever wanted or dreamed about since I was 8, was to someday be a mother and I know most woman on here also feel that way, but that was the only thing keeping me this strong throughout the years. Then on top of what I think are more than enough problems for someone my age, I'm told the likely hood of having a child is very slim. Since then I just felt lost and just wanting to curl into a ball and cry, give up on life completely, I am not suicidal just the thought seems so much easier then dealing with this anymore. Every time I get to thinking I wonder what have I done, so badly to deserve these punishments?
I know I am at that age, where everything seems like a big deal and I will have a "young life crisis" but in many ways I am far to mature for myself and have probably been through more then most at my age. I don't really know what I expect from this thread. Or what I wanted. I think it was more just.. asking if anyone else feels lost and depressed, and maybe how you deal with it? What is keeping you going? and it helped me just get some much needed feelings out.
All of us feel that way at some point, so know your not alone! Focus on your health, your goals.. diet, excercise, take supplements, go out with your friends, get some hobbies.. do things to keep yourself happy.. I know it feels overwheliming right now but things will get better.. Be strong!
Lately, I have had complete mood swings but usually of only happiness into sadness and it can happen as quickly as 4 mins. Like tonight I was smiling, laughing and hyper suddenly I stop and get to thinking and suddenly I'm crying. I find myself crying about 2 to 3 times a day.. just 30 minute sessions or sometimes they can go on for about 4 hours. I am not sure what to do anymore, I can't stop myself from thinking. My doctor won't put me on any medication until my blood pressure has gone down and I have tried therapy. I just feel so... lost and just depressed.
I am 16, I know I have had problems growing up from CPS being in my life often, abuse, moving constantly and just each year I have something big give me a blow to the heart but then the one thing I ever wanted or dreamed about since I was 8, was to someday be a mother and I know most woman on here also feel that way, but that was the only thing keeping me this strong throughout the years. Then on top of what I think are more than enough problems for someone my age, I'm told the likely hood of having a child is very slim. Since then I just felt lost and just wanting to curl into a ball and cry, give up on life completely, I am not suicidal just the thought seems so much easier then dealing with this anymore. Every time I get to thinking I wonder what have I done, so badly to deserve these punishments?
I know I am at that age, where everything seems like a big deal and I will have a "young life crisis" but in many ways I am far to mature for myself and have probably been through more then most at my age. I don't really know what I expect from this thread. Or what I wanted. I think it was more just.. asking if anyone else feels lost and depressed, and maybe how you deal with it? What is keeping you going? and it helped me just get some much needed feelings out.
During my 16th year of like I would stay in the house for weeks because I didn't want to go out and face the world. My brother had just been murdered and everyone was acting like we should just move on.
We all deal with life's difficulties differently. I hope you have people around you who are supportive. I know I didn't because all the focus was given to my younger sister who acted out quite viciously.
Going back to church has helped me tremendously, but I'm not suggesting religion because it doesn't work for everyone. I'm 21 now so things are starting to become a bit clearer in my head.
I wake up in the morning and know that even if the world came crashing down on me that at least one good thing has happened to me...and that one thing is I woke up to face another day.
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ToGeThEr SiNcE: 10/10/2009
-Diagnosed with PCOS on May 29, 2009 -Diagnosed as possibly pre-diabetic on July 31, 2009
My Writing:
"Low End of the High Life"
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"All Time Low"
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During my 16th year of like I would stay in the house for weeks because I didn't want to go out and face the world. My brother had just been murdered and everyone was acting like we should just move on.
We all deal with life's difficulties differently. I hope you have people around you who are supportive. I know I didn't because all the focus was given to my younger sister who acted out quite viciously.
Going back to church has helped me tremendously, but I'm not suggesting religion because it doesn't work for everyone. I'm 21 now so things are starting to become a bit clearer in my head.
I wake up in the morning and know that even if the world came crashing down on me that at least one good thing has happened to me...and that one thing is I woke up to face another day.
I will be going back to church once I get a car. Until then I will face these demons on my own. Thank you as well for you kind words in both posts they mean a lot.
I saw your post and I just had to write something. I know I've felt before so incredibly overwelmed with PCOS, and still do. There are sooo many different components to PCOS, so many things going on that you just want to scream and think why me? When I was first dx, I was actually excited about it because I knew that if there was a name to all of this craziness, hopefully I could figure out how to control it better.
I truly think if you made some steps in the right direction, to take control of PCOS you would feel so much better. You are certainly dealing with a lot, just because of your age. You have to deal with school, boys, acceptance, it's a critical stage. Then you add PCOS on top of it!
For me personally what keeps me on track is thinking about how I want to have babies, I didn't want diabetes, heart disease. I wasn't just going to except the diagnosis, I'm not dealing with this crazy syndome, I am taking control of it. So I took the bull by the horns and started doing a ton of research. I don't know if you have weight to loose, are insulin resistant, etc. But I had a lot of weight to loose, I've lost over 100 so far. Which has done tremendous things to the affect PCOS has on my body. PCOS will never be gone, but we can control it and I just so happened to be able to do that naturally.
We are all here for help, support, questions, etc. All I have to say is IF I could go back to 16 years old, when my PCOS wasn't as bad as it was when I was dx.. I would do anything for it!!!!!! Seriously!
Best wishes to you!!
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Doing Low GI diet as of Sept. 07. DX with PCOS in Sept 07' as well.
Started at a size 24, now a size 14. My waist was 44", now it's 32".
I am on no medication, just diet and exercise.
Thank you all for your support and information! I encourage all of you to do a Low Glycemic diet!
Crying... :'( 
