Cycle of Depression

AllisonM · 01-16-2003, 11:44 AM

Hi ladies,

Ever since the holidays, I have gotten myself into this cycle of depression. All I want to do is sleep and eat. I don't want to leave the house. I don't want to see anyone. I'd go to the gym, but I'm just exhausted from sleeping so much.

Actually, looking back, I think it started the day we went cross country skiing. I live in Rochester, NY and it's been perfect for skiing here this year. We took the doggie to the park on Sunday, as we do every Sunday and grabbed our skis as well. It was hard work and I felt like a big, fat idiot. I prayed that no one would see me. What's worse is I fell. Nothing serious, just a small tumble, but I couldn't get up without taking the skis off and I couldn't reach my feet, so hubby had to help me. I twisted my knee a bit and now it hurts to walk up stairs or on the tread mill.

On top of everything else, I haven't worked in 9 months. I used to be in training and am changing careers, which involves education and taking a serious step back as far as prestige and salary goes. I sell Tupperware on the side, which I love, but I can't even seem to make the calls to get parties booked.

Every day, I tell myself that tomorrow will be better and that I'll go to the gym and eat well, but I just can't seem to get out of this FUNK.

How have others gotten out of this cycle? I am reluctant to see the Dr., but am thinking that I need to make an appointment.

Thanks for listening.
Allison

KT1979 · 01-17-2003, 03:47 PM

I have cycles of depression too. I'll be feeling pretty okay for awhile, and then some little thing will set me off and I feel totally awful again. That rollercoater of emotion really sucks. I haven't sought medical help either, but sometimes I think it might not be a bad idea. If you're just eating and sleeping and not wanting to leave the house, it might be a good idea for you to see a doctor. You do sound pretty depressed. Sorry you're feeling blue, and here's hoping you feel better soon.