I'm not really sure what is causing it, but I know it's just a massive heap of sh*t. People want to know what's wrong, but I can't pin-point it. It's like a landfill - You can go and dig up individual pieces of sh*t, but you don't need to. IT'S ONE BIG PILE OF SH*T, and that's all that needs to be known about it.
I feel like a total loser. I am actually becoming certain that I have CFS. I have been reading up on it tonight, and it looks just like me, but I couldn't be diagnosed because I haven't had the symptoms for 6 months or more. So I am going to basically drop out of functioning life, so to speak, for the next 6 months until I can see a doctor that will probably think I'm a hypochondriac? And then what? Have that doctor say, "Eat better and exercise. Just give that a try and you might find that it helps your depression, too."? And then what? Get put on stimulants? Get RE-checked for Sleep Apnea? I don't know, because the whole sh*tting thing is at least another 6 months away, so I've heard.
I am just feeling SUPER-negative right now because it seems like I had a BRILLIANT 2007, and if this month is any indicator of what the rest of the year will be like, I don't know what I am going to do.
I get frustrated at all the co-morbid issues that come with any one of my chronic conditions, and the possibility of adding another might tip me over. I swung mixed tonight, and I don't know how long it's going to last. I hope I will be fine when I wake up tomorrow, but as you can tell, my body and mind being drained of energy = my life being drained of sanity. I just keep saying, "I just need some sleep. If I can just get a rest. Just one more nap." But it's never enough.
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Add "Sleep Junkie" to the list of chronic sh*t I don't want to deal with....
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it sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now. we all have our "blah" days, but if you find that the blah days are lasting more than a week or two- or if you consistently feel more "blah" than fine it's worth being checked out. i know you mentioned having several chronic conditions; have you had bloodwork recently? there might be something physical going on that is causing you to feel low and tired.
you may be depressed. wanting to sleep all the time is a hallmark symptom of depression. it's one of my own personal early warning signs that i might be backsliding. it is also winter- the classic time of year for depressive symptoms to pop up.
i guess what i'm trying to say is that there may be one or more things playing into your current mental state. and it might not be chronic fatigue... go get checked out. multiple medical issues are no fun... i hope you can get some answers and some relief.
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I have Bipolar Disorder, hence the whole "Cycling" part of the title. That is one of my chronic disorders, but I KNOW FOR A FACT that that is not what is causing my extreme fatigue. I'm not really in a depressed state. I was a little mixed when I wrote the OP, but I'm just feeling blah now. Not sad blah, not angry blah, just I'm-sick-and-tired-of-being-sick-and-tired blah.
Flight, I know it's not much of a consolation when you are feeling so rough, but know that we think you are terrific here. I was just re-reading one of your posts--the Target post--and laughing uproarilously. You are hysterical and your posts are so entertaining, and so damn witty. And your pic in your avatar is beautiful, too.
I know that you are not looking so much for advice with this post, just venting. Just wanted to let you know that I read it, and I'm thinking about you. And thank you for admitting your bipolar condition. I see a psychiatrist in a month, and I fear that will be my diagnosis, too. Thank you for showing me that someone who is both beautiful and witty can have this, and it's not a life sentence to craziness!
When I called my doctor about possible PPD, they told me to diet and exercise, and that would fix it. I almost had to put the phone down while I LMFAO. Come on. We all know that that's not the panacea, especially when we have a menagerie of conditions.
Yeah, I feel ya on the chronic conditions...ever since I had my dd a year ago, I haven't felt right. And it's hard, isn't it? And depressing. And miserable, and I feel well, blah, right now too and have for several weeks now. And yes, I know all about the prescription drugs, too. I have so many now that when I pick them up at the pharmacy, they don't even have to ask my name. Embarrassing. I am sure that they think I'm a frickin' crazy, recreational prescription drug user. I am certain I am the ongoing joke around there. Sigh...
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jen- i hear 'ya on the frustration of multiple meds... i leave walgreen's once monthly with a ginormous shopping bag full of drugs. geez. i feel like such a junkie sometimes.
i hope that your psych appointment goes well; good luck!
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Flight, I know it's not much of a consolation when you are feeling so rough, but know that we think you are terrific here. I was just re-reading one of your posts--the Target post--and laughing uproarilously. You are hysterical and your posts are so entertaining, and so damn witty. And your pic in your avatar is beautiful, too.
I know that you are not looking so much for advice with this post, just venting. Just wanted to let you know that I read it, and I'm thinking about you. And thank you for admitting your bipolar condition. I see a psychiatrist in a month, and I fear that will be my diagnosis, too. Thank you for showing me that someone who is both beautiful and witty can have this, and it's not a life sentence to craziness!
When I called my doctor about possible PPD, they told me to diet and exercise, and that would fix it. I almost had to put the phone down while I LMFAO. Come on. We all know that that's not the panacea, especially when we have a menagerie of conditions.
Yeah, I feel ya on the chronic conditions...ever since I had my dd a year ago, I haven't felt right. And it's hard, isn't it? And depressing. And miserable, and I feel well, blah, right now too and have for several weeks now. And yes, I know all about the prescription drugs, too. I have so many now that when I pick them up at the pharmacy, they don't even have to ask my name. Embarrassing. I am sure that they think I'm a frickin' crazy, recreational prescription drug user. I am certain I am the ongoing joke around there. Sigh...
Thank you for that beautiful, beautiful message and punch of positivity. I REALLY REALLY appreciate it. I never know whether or not people "get me." I really needed it just now. Your timing is awesome. I just walked in the door from a doctor's appointment that my DD still has a bladder infection. We don't know when it's going to go away long enough to run other tests to see what is up with her pee. I cried all the way home.
However, I actually do feel better today. I got really tired last night and went to bed at 9:30p. I can't remember that last time I went to bed before midnight. I also went to the pharmacy to pick up a Vitamin B Complex that might be helping? I hope so.... I guess I can deal with the nasty taste as long as it takes to find out, and maybe longer. My husband in on his weekend now, so I will get plenty of help and maybe just enough of a rest that I can keep going.
Walgreens is my second home. I'm there at least once a week. I purchase 7 medications through them for myself alone, 2 for my son, and lately it's been one for my daughter as well. I sometimes wonder what they say about me when I leave, too.... I swear I should invest in the company. Might get some of my money back. <_<
It took me over 2 years to get to the point where being Bipolar wasn't a moment-by-moment thought. It took me that long to stop talking about it all the time, and being bitter about it. It took me that amount of time to actually embrace it. I (very obviously) have the occasional regression, but people just like you help me over that hump, and I am so, so grateful.
I know exactly how you feel and I am going through the same thing right now.
DH is putting me through some stress which I think is helping to trigger some of the way I feel...............He is saying to me that I am not turned on by him any more because I don't have an orgasm every time we make love..........
With everything that is going on in my life, it is a wonder I have one at all.
I can't seem to get him to understand that the world doesn't revolve around him , so everything I go through isn't because of something he is or isn't doing........
I wish he would talk to my doctor, maybe he would then understand!!!
I mean, I am turned on by him, want to have sex, but once we get started, I can't seem to concentrate on the mission at hand, so it is hard to climax when your brain is bouncing all over the place.......
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DH is putting me through some stress which I think is helping to trigger some of the way I feel...............He is saying to me that I am not turned on by him any more because I don't have an orgasm every time we make love..........
With everything that is going on in my life, it is a wonder I have one at all.
I can't seem to get him to understand that the world doesn't revolve around him , so everything I go through isn't because of something he is or isn't doing........
I wish he would talk to my doctor, maybe he would then understand!!!
Oh yes, I go through that too, all the time. All the time. And then dh wonders why I have no sex drive? Hmmm.... I spoke with my PCP about my total lack of sex drive (like, I could care less if I ever did it again, at least with him), and my PCP told me that first I had to take care of my depression, anxiety and exhaustion issues, then move on to sex drive. Dh was not at all please with this answer.
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lean- *hugs* emotional issues can really take a toll on your sexual life, which in turn tends to make the emotional issues worse. it is a very frustrating thing to deal with. sex is the last thing on my mind right now and has been for a while.
some medications can cause sexual s/e's. what are you taking currently, if you don't mind my asking. cymbalta is the worse for me- total anorgasmia. :/ if it is a med issue, something as simple as tweaking your prescription can potentially help.
it does also help, i find to keep your partners as informed as possible about your mental state and its effects on your relationship/intimacy. maybe you can run this by your doctor- it might help to have a couples session w/him so he can hear this from a neutral party.
*hugs* hope things get better soon!
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Cycling, and I'm not talking about bikes.... 
