Daily Balloon~10/02/2003

lilithann · 10-02-2003, 11:07 AM

I hate my F*&#king job! I hate calling people everyday practically begging money from them. I am so tired of sales it is not funny. It is the same crap every darn day. If I could find a better job I would leave in a heartbeat. However, it does pay very good money. I shouldn't complain but I am so tired of the high cut throat ratio that it is pathetic. AHHHHHHH! One day the stress of this job, my health, my relationship with DH, his health, TTC, my family, his family, bills, money, the cats' health is going to be the death of me.

Okay breathe breathe!

Lilith Ann

slhightower · 10-02-2003, 11:18 AM

I'm right there with you. Plus the co-worker issue. And the one time you might choose to vent (not including this forum), someone thinks you are ungrateful for what you do have. What is that all about? How many butts do you have to kiss and how many a$$'s are we expected to wipe (and we don't even have a kid).

Every now and again (very rarely), my DH, when he knows I just can't make it another day... gives me a "FREE DAY". I don't have to go to work, he calls in for me, I don't have wake up, I don't have to cook/clean/talk. I am allowed to just veg. It helps.

Hang in there cyster! And vent all you NEED!!!!!!

**My hopes and dreams and what I look forward too is that one day I will have a baby of my own (one way or another) and my day will be devoted to being a mommy!**

Lendi · 10-02-2003, 11:26 AM

Great vent. You've stated my feelings exactly. 100% I'm taking a "mental health" day today myself. Actually, I took a vacation day and told my boss I just needed to veg for a day. It's been so stressful at work, we've been shorthanded and I've had to pick up the slack. And, office politics is abounding. Lots of changes in dept. heads, speculation on job cuts. It's been a rough 2 months. Yesterday, the ball started rolling...or maybe heads started rolling

I'm not sure which you would call it. Anyway, my job is safe but the tension was so thick you could cut it. Man, it's touchy. Most of my office is being affected, I will be too, but only in that my job description may change, no more money, just more responsibility. But, I have a job, and hey...it'll look good on a resume

Oh, BTW I have decided to go off Wellbutrin. It wasn't helping the pain any and was keeping me from sleeping well which increased the pain. So I'm not on any anti-d' right now. I think it was doing everything backwards to what it was suppose to. I was not a nice person

So, if I all of a sudden seem really strange and wierd, will ya let me know please

I plan on seeing what happens without any. I was doing ok without for over a month til the Dr. put on the wellbutrin. Then, I seemed to get depressed again. Would that be an oxymoron...take and anti-depressant then get depressed?