KTdid

Hi Ladies-
I hope I am doing this right--I noticed the thread about having this daily balloon to vent. If I did it wrong--I am sorry.
I have been lurking on the boards on an off for about two years--around the time I was diagnosed with PCOS. I tend to be a bit of a hypochondriac so i am usually looking when I am worried about something. But today I really feel the need to vent!! I feel like everything keeps going wrong. I have depression--I have had a mild case for several years but it gets bad when I go through a crisis. I take 50mg of zoloft before bed. About 3 years ago I got off bcp and we ttc. But my body had other plans and I eventually found out my wierd cycles were due to PCOS. At about the same time my husband and I started having difficulty in our marriage (too long of a story!). It all seemed to happen at once. Since then, I find myself feeling anxious a lot--I get nervous about everything and while DH reassures me that he loves me etc., I keep worrying that he has been with someone else (I have an active imagination). And everytime I have a reproductive problem I freak out that its an STD. Last night I noticed a painful pimple in the labia minor area (the flappy part--not the outer lip area). So now I am freaked i have herpes or something (if anyone has any thoughts--please let me know). Ever since PCOS I feel like I have no clue what is normal and what isn't. And then when I ramble on like this, I feel nuts. I get so worked up over things and it makes me feel even crappier. And I am tired quite often and have a hunch its a carb thing but can't seem to get my but in gear--its a viscious cycle--depressed-->tired--->eat junk---> feel fat---->depressed. UGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Well, I needed to vent and this seemed like a safe place. Thanks for listening...
KTINDY

Lendi

Hugs. Vent away, anytime. You are right, this is what this thread is for. It's a place where you can write out your feelings, not matter what they are, then release them just like a balloon. Watch them fly away. Now, do you feel a little better after seeing those nasty feelings flying across the sky? If not, feel free to write some more. You are safe here.
I've had a decent day. Isn't it odd how one day can be so incredible and you wonder how you can go on and the next you wonder what your problem was before. Heck, sometimes I even have minutes like that. Feel like Alice in Wonderland. That's the way my week has been. I'm looking forward to the weekend and some time to relax.
Hoping all of you are doing well.
Lendi

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