Daily Baloon 10/07/2003

pomot5 · 10-07-2003, 02:01 PM

I have a weird question to ask. At 6 am in the morning when it is time to get up, I feel bouts of anxiety, half of me ( most of me ) does not want to get-up, the other part reminds me of my duties and I had to get-up I go thru this everyday. I would tell myself another 5 minutes. Even after a sound sleep. Is this depression caused or anxiety or just plain old laziness?? Once I get up I am fine. Some weekends I check on the kids if they are still in bed I go back to bed to twiddle my thumbs.
Today I feel sad. Couple of my friends who were diagnosed with diabetes much later than me have been able to control the BS and now they are off the medication. I am happy for them.
I feel cheated in every corner of my life right now. No romantic or man in my life. The memories of the past relationships are still painful. At job they are thinking about outsourcing ( I always hide behind work) so do not know how long it is going to last. The medications that I am on for depression & diabetes are in news with class actin suits. :-( I am wondering about changing the meds or docs who keep on prescribing the meds in news.
I have gained couple lbs with Avandia meds. Only guiding lights are the kids. Sometimes I am irritable with their mischiviousness. Feel guilty afterwards.
I took provera and still haven't gotten my periods yet.
So there you have it the long story about my sad-day!
padma

slhightower · 10-07-2003, 03:35 PM

Sorry to hear about your morning. To be honest I have wondered about the depresssion/anxiety thing myself. I get a decent night of sleep, but practically every morning I wake up and I feel the need to hit snooze. Pretty much the only thing that works in my case... is my DH kicking me out of bed. But once I get in the shower and get going I am okay.

I have been reading the Insulin-Resistant Diet... and as best I can figure it may have more to do with the waking levels of glucose and stuff in the morning. Who knows, most mornings I am kind of pissed to get up and go another day knowing that I'm not PG, that I'm overweight, hairy, and sad!!!!

So here's to another day :-)

Hope tomorrow is better!!

pomot5 · 10-07-2003, 04:18 PM

Thanks Stephanie. BTW I live in Texas too. I live in plano work in Mesquite. Looong commute !
Hope we will have a better day tomorrow I guess

daculadawg1 · 10-07-2003, 04:28 PM

i feel the same way everyday. i'm going to get that book. ir.lol linda m

slhightower · 10-07-2003, 04:56 PM

Lots of others here are using this method (IR Diet). I just got the book this weekend... and it seems to be self explanitory. It is just one of those things that will take some time to get used to.

Well tomorrow is HUMP day (as DH likes to remind me in good humor). So we will be closer to the weekend, and the ability to sleep in a little :-)

Lendi · 10-07-2003, 08:08 PM

Depression can cause fatigue. I'm not sure how, but I know that wanting to stay in bed is one of the main symptoms. Not wanting to face the day/world maybe? Or, you may not be sleeping well, even though you think you are. There are several stages of sleep, and you need to cycle through all of them, several times each night. When you wake up tired, you've probably skipped stage 4 at the least. Once you're up and moving, the adrenalen gets you going. Try magnesium to help you sleep. It a mineral that you can buy at most grocery/drug stores or even walmart. It's cheap and you may see a huge difference after a few weeks.