I am SOOOOO depressed today. I haven't been to a dr. in well over a year (nearly 2) so a friend of mine told me that she'd heard about this new dr. and girls like me who hadn't got pregnant on their own went to him and all got pregnant. Now keep in mind I've had PCOS forever and my husband has low sperm. We went to a fertility specialist and he said the only way we could ever have a baby is IVF. We decided we weren't ready for that and that's when I stopped going to the gyno. too. Well, in the meantime I just got fatter and fatter (I don't eat that much, but don't have to explain myself because you all have PCOS also). Well the dr. that is supposed to be so great told me that he couldn't do anything for me if the other dr. couldn't and I asked him about diabetes (my dad and grandma have it) and Factor V Leiden which is a blot clotting disease that is hereditary that my uncle has. He said "You don't have to worry about either of those things. You are going to get cancer. When you never bleed (I haven't had a period since March) then your endometrial lining builds up and you get cancer. You won't get it next year or five years from now but when you are 40 you will get it." He said he'd send me to a nutritionist and see me in 6 months. He gave me a pap smear but that was it - no blood work or anything. He asked me what my testorone level was and I told him I didn't know (I wanted to say "Pretty f*#&ing high if I had to guess - I want to beat your a$$ like a man right now") and then he said "Have you ever TRIED to lose weight?" Can you even believe that - I'm OBESE - it's not like I haven't noticed that when I look in the mirror and want to cry everyday. Anyway - to make me feel even MORE depressed my husband works 7 days a week, 12 hours a day (he's working tomorrow) and he volunteers to do it. I have my own photography business and go to college. When I told him what the dr. said about losing weight he said "Well I guess you just need to exercise and stop laying in bed all the time". Besides wanting to punch him I just wanted to cry. I am sitting here right now wanting to bawl thinking about it, my life, and the body God has given me. I am so thankful that I am healthy as I am, but this beard I have to shave everyday and the absence of periods and inability to have children and the constant tiredness and never being able to sleep and getting fatter and fatter everyday. I just want to cry. Anyway - I just wanted to vent about men pretty much. I just wish I could find a way to love myself more and love the body I was given instead of feeling like an ugly, fat slob.
Thanks for listening!!!
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Well I'll get cancer with you then, as it's been 370 days since I last saw AF!!!!!!!!!!!!! but here in the UK they don't care as if your OBESE, its your own fault....
With the depression there is little I can say and do because I am feeling the same, perhaps you really need to go back to your doctors!
Perhaps an endocronologist (not sure if you were just seeing a gyn) would be a better person to see. They would definately look into your family history of diabetes.
(((HUGS))) Hang in there. If you need to talk feel free to PM me.
Hi alot of the doctor, arent really understanding about pcos.
I always feel it a waste of there time, cause they make you feel that
its all in your head. BUt it isnt. When i first started with pcos
my time of month was out of control, i would have it every day for
months, then was put on proverA that worked for abit them it stopped.
And ive been told to loose the weight. Just keep a stiff upper lip.
I just wanted to give you a hug and let you know you're not alone in your depression honey, it happens to so many of us. We deal with so much with this syndrome, it's an incredible strain on us emotionally.
Hang in there sweetie, it WILL get better, and you know you can always come and have a rant or a talk here.
I'm sorry you're feeling down - I wouldn't want to go back to that doctor.... Does he even know anything about PCOS? Plus there's no way he can know if you're going to have cancer or not and why would he say something like that to you?
Being healthy is what's the most important thing - Be the healthiest you that you can be, whatever that may be.
I've had the same argument with my DH - I think they see us so miserable that they just want to fix it, they don't realize that we can't just jump on a treadmill for a week and drop 15lbs.
Good luck and I'm hear to listen if you need to vent..
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