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Hi all.

I may seem incredibly chirpy (and i know i cant spell some words so please forgive me ) but i have a confession.

I have been depressed ever since i was 13 and i am 21 now and still have these bad feelings. Recently they have gotton worse but i am working hard through it. Ive managed up until now and whats getting me through is i managed on my own til now, im sure i can get through this and get better on my own.

I was depressed before i was diagnosed with PCOS (was diagnosed at 17), but recently its the PCOS that has been getting me down. Ive been trying to lose weight on and off since i was 11 (i was bullied extremely badly at school for my weight thats why it kept piling on - comfort eating)

but nothing worked. And now i feel more comfortable in my own skin and dont let any bad comments get me down - i learnt the hard way.

i havent mentioned everything i went through because i went through alot since i was 11 - including physical at school.

But now im trying my best and hardest to get through it and trying to lose weight and making living with PCOS better.

And i think its great we all got each other to support each other, and we know other people who are going through the same thing. Before i joined this group i was at a all time low, but im trying hard and i know those out there who are depressed and upset can make life bearable.

If things get too much i just think about those people out there who cant even afford food, who have lost limbs or cant see or hear, or dont even have family and i thank god for what i got. No matter that we got PCOS, most of us have more things than many people in the world have. We should be grateful. And when i think of that i feel like i should be grateful for what i have.

i know it has nothing to do with anything lol but ive not spoken out properly about my depression before although a VERY few close people know about it.

I just want u all to know there is a way to get through it and you just need to take 1 day at a time, no matter what other people say, just think about yourself and dont fall at hurdles, just keep trying until u are over them. Thats what ive been doing since i was 11 and without support ive been doing it all this time. If i can do it then u can

take care of urslfs xx

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