Depression

hhopkins7998 · 04-14-2009, 01:11 PM

I have been suffering from depression for a while but it has not really gotten serious until now. I just lost my fifth baby, this time do to Ectopic pregnancy. I had to have surgery because it ruptured and i was bleeding internally. Since then my depression is getting worse and worse. I was good at hiding it but the past couple of weeks people are starting to notice. My boss is such a good friend. She even notices how i am not as "peppy" as i used to be. For the past week i have started crieing for no reason and its not really when i am thinking about the pregnancy. Sometimes it just happens out of the blue. I was just sitting here working a couple minutes ago and i just started crieing. I really think my depression is most likely caused by everything that has happened to be my whole life and i bottled it up for so long i just cant do it any more. another thing (i dont know if its related or not) i have been having flash backs of something my father did to me as a child. I dont know what could be bring this on. I know i am not really stressed. I was a llittle stressed out when i got pregnant but thats really been it. The main thing i really want to do is where do i go from here? I really want to get help because i am worried this might turn into something else. Do i need to go see a counselor? Bi-polar and depression run in both sides of my family. My mom has bi-polar disorder and my dad is manic-depressive. I know that we were going to try to get me tested for one of these when i was in high school but it never happened. I am just so worried because i dont feel as strong as i used to. the littlest things upset me or annoy me and it affects everyone i love. I am not sure what else to say i just need to know what to do. I dont know what kind of doctor to see or what my options are.

jupiter · 04-14-2009, 05:17 PM

I am so sorry about your miscarriages. I have had several miscarriages and they are very painful and it does take time to heal from them.

In my opinion, the first thing you should do is get tested for bi-polar disorder. Once you have been tested than you can decide if you need to see a counselor, psychologist or psychiatrist. Out of the three only a psychiatrist can prescribe medication. If you are bi-polar you might be able to see a counselor and get your primary doctor to prescribe the medication. If you aren't bi-polar I would suggest seeing a counselor. You should be able to get a good recommendation from your doctor.

You could also have borderline-personality disorder. I have it. It mimics bi-polar disorder. In most cases it does not require medication to treat.

Something that might help you before you can get help is to keep a gratitude journal. When I was in recovery for alcoholism my sponsor had me keep one. It really helps to keep focus on the good things in your life.

Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

KAMsMOM · 04-14-2009, 11:28 PM

I have been recently been diagnosed with Anxiety and have been having the same types of issues you are experiencing. I would suggest talking to a dr. They can definately help you. Keep us posted, good luck. w are here if you need us!