Hi. My name is Brandy. I am 27 and was diagnosed with PCOS 5 years ago, though I know I've had it for 11 or 12 years. I take daily: 2000 mg Metformin, 200 mg Spironolactone, 10 mg Amlodipine, 37.5 mg Phentermine, 2000 mg Omega 3 fish oil and a multi-vitamin.
I know that depression has been linked with PCOS, but I'm generally not a depressed person. I have had severe bouts of anxiety a couple of years ago, which don't happen anymore, but anytime my boyfriend and I talk about having kids and my PCOS, it makes me cry and I always feel like there's a piece of my heart missing. I see people with babies and I regrettably feel jealous and sad sometimes. I hear of people aborting their pregnancies and dumping babies in dumpsters and I wonder why God would give these people children and not me. I have known from the bottom of my soul since I was a little girl that the one thing I was put on this earth for was to be a mother and I guess that's why it breaks my heart so much and makes me sad. Any opinions, facts or ideas on the matter?
__________________ Diagnosed with PCOS 5 years ago, but I know I've had it for 11 or 12 years. Daily medications: Multi-vitamin, 2000 mg Omega 3 Fish Oil, 2000 mg Metformin, 200 mg Spironolactone, 10 mg Amlodipine and Phentermine 37.5 mg 2 weeks on, one week off. I am about 80 lbs overweight and have had an extremely healthy diet for the last 5 years.
oh honey, I'm right there with you. I'm experiencing secondary infertility and PCOS. I just can't seem to get past him never having siblings. It kills me and feels like my heart is being ripped apart.
You are not alone in your sadness. I have one daughter who is 6 and it also makes me feel so sad that she is an only child. She says that all the other kids in her class have brothers or sisters and she doesn't. I feel like such a failure! Of course I take antidepressants, so it doesn't hurt as much. Do not give up hope though. Use this site as inspiration. I felt so much better knowing that there are others like me with pcos. I felt like I was so alone. Now, I come on here a lot to learn about others and their stories and to feel motivated to overcome these pcos/fertility obstacles. Life is not fair is it? But that doesn't mean the end of the world. Have hope and faith
__________________ Me-36 DH-36 DD-6 Thin with pcos--My daily regimen: prescription iron, GNC Ultra Mega Vitamins, fish oil, borage oil, dha, walking at least 30 min-1 hr a day, pilates, and doing weights
Yes I feel the same way. It hurts when I hear girls my age talk about their children like they're the biggest mistakes they've ever made in their lives.
I've just learned to stop hanging around them and/or tune them out for my own sanity.
Just have faith that when the time is right God will deliver a baby to you whether it be naturally or by some other means.
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"I Can't Wait To H.A.T.E.U Cuz Right Now I Need You," -Mariah Carey.
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ToGeThEr SiNcE: 10/10/2009
-Diagnosed with PCOS on May 29, 2009 -Diagnosed as possibly pre-diabetic on July 31, 2009
My Writing:
"Low End of the High Life"
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"All Time Low"
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((hugs)) I think we all have our sad times, and when DF and I have the more kids talk and he says he is not sure I cry my eyes out too. Its such a quick decision for him to say not sure when I sometimes feel like I cant do it AT ALL... My son is the same way with the only child feeling and I feel horrible that I have not been able to give him the joy of siblings like I had and have as an adult..
We are all here to support you so please just let it out and you will feel better. You will get your BFP ..
PS. I stopped taking my spiro b/c I was told it can hurt a male fetus if I happen to get pregnant. Be careful !
__________________ Dx PCOS 1/09
Feb - Aug 09: Metformin 1500mg
Sept: Met 2000mg,soy 120mg CD4-8/ No O
Oct: Met 2000mg,soy 200mg CD 3-7/O CD24
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It sounds like to me that you are just dealing with separation and loss issuse. I think it's normal to feel like this after the break up of a loving relationship. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to process what your feeling. It's nopt a bad thing to feel sad.
Reference to coping, my advice would be to surround yourself with people that care about you. This way your needs get recognised and it combats the effects of feeling alone and isolated wich generally is associated with depression. Keeping your stroke levels up is really important, and generally people that suffer with depression isolate themselves from others which prevents them recieving required strokes. Strokes really are the key to emotional and psychological health.
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My fiance said the most hurtful thing when i found out i had PCOS..
He Said "Oh Well looks like you have built in birth control"
I felt like i had been stabbed in the heart what a hurtful thing to say.. i dont want "built in birth control"
I dont know if he said this to try and lighten the mood or if he was really happy that we wouldn't be having kids untill he decided it and the doctor...
I know what u mean everyone has always asked me when i was younger what do you wanna be after school and i would say a mother i think i was put on this earth to be a mother i feel your pain and i am praying for you i am always depressed..
__________________ Me and My fiance have been together for almost four years we have not been preventing pregnancy for 3 years. I have never taken birth control. We are getting married on November 28th!
Currently Taking Vitex,Prenatal Vitamins,B6, and Vitamin E
Hubby is taking Omega 3,6,9..MultiVitamin,vitamin E
Depression or just heart break? 
