Depression and my Relationship

x_siobhan_x · 08-27-2007, 03:39 PM

I am in a 3 1/2 year relationship, and it seems like we ocnstantly fight now. Ever since my diagnosis, I have slipped into this depression. I don't care about anything, I have no goals, and I just have this who cares type of attitude. I try so hard to find something to be motivated about, but I just can't. I am miserable because of my weight, and feel so unattractive, and just plain feel like he doesn't desire me the way he used to. I want things to just go back to normal, but no matter how I try they won't. I constantly feel guilt that I am so fat and have fertilkity problems. I feel like how can he love me? I don't knoiw anymore. It just seems that I have really found no reason to keep going on. He is the only good thing in my life right now, and if I lost him, I don't know what I'd do. But I know if things keep up this way, he will leave. I cannot control my feelings, and it sucks. Sometimes I wish I would just die. How can I overcome this?

Isaiahsmommy · 08-30-2007, 11:48 AM

You should try getting some counceling.. It could really helo with your depression and self image issues. It would seem to me that going to talk to someone or even possible anti-depressants would be a better option than losing your BF. I had to do it just recently.. And while I would rather not be seeing a therapist and I would DEFINATELY rather not be on medication, it has helped tremendously and DF is SO supportive now that I am not so much of a nutcase.

But good luck with whatever you decide to do. Just remember that depression doesn't have to ruin your life.. There are options available. HTH.. Take care of yourself.