Is depression a roller coaster ride?

DavisSR · 07-18-2003, 11:34 AM

Ever since May 13th, the day that I found out that my baby was dead when I was 16 weeks 5 days pregnant, I've been on a roller coaster ride. It got worse two days later when I had to have an emergency hysterectomy. I went to the hospital for an induction, was rushed to surgery for an emergency D & E due to hemorrhaging, then during surgery the hemorrhaging wouldn't stop and they did an emergency hysterectomy. What? A hysterectomy? I'm still in disbelief over this. Things only get worse. My emotions are up and down. One day I'm fine, the next day I feel like the world is black and there is no hope for life to get better.

Does this get any better? I've been on Paxil 20 mg for only a week, but the roller coaster ride has not slowed down. The highs and lows are still bad. I hate this! I want it to stop!

Sheri

santa'sbaby · 07-18-2003, 12:22 PM

First off , please know that I am so sorry for your loss and that you are in my prayers. I do hope that you can find peace in your life very soon. (((((((SECOND HUG)))))))))))))

I can tell you that it can take up to six weeks to feel the effect of anti-depressants. However I am thinking that you are dealing with the loss of your baby and that is something that you are going to feel naturally. I don't think that Paxil can make that feel any better because there is bound to be a greiving process. I do hope that you are allowing yourself permission to go through that. Seek any help if you feel that you need it.

The changes with any anti-depressant are gradual and may not be noticable right away. In the meantime, what I find helps is to watch funny movies, spend time in the sunshine (even though I have to force myself to get out there) and to try and keep as busy as possible.

Please keep us posted on how you are doing! Remember we care.

April

Lendi · 07-18-2003, 10:50 PM

Oh, bless you. I am so, so sorry for your loss. You're must be hurting so very badly, grieving not only the loss of this child, but of future children as well. Give into the grief. Let yourself cry, and hurt and be angry. It is ok to have those feelings. April is right, it can take several weeks for anti-depressants to take full effect. I'm sorry. I know you want to stop hurting right now! You will probably start to feel a little better soon, but it will take time. If you find that you're not seeing any relief at all by say another couple of weeks, you might want to check with your physician. Some meds work better than others for some people. I would guess you may be going through hormonal swings too. You've gotten a double whammy. Grief counseling might be a good idea as well. If ever you wish to "talk" please feel free to pm or e-mail me. Big Hugs, and peace, Lendi

STORMIEYES73 · 07-22-2003, 05:11 PM

Sheri,
The other ladies are so right. Cry, shout, vent, throw pillows, let it all out, write into a journal, or record your thoughts into a tape recorder. Sometimes, I just call a friend & say talk to me about anything as a distraction, or just tell the friend to let me ramble, vent, etc. I pray that your soul & heart finds comfort & peace.
Everyone here will be praying for you.
Much Love My Friend,
Linda S.