depression spawned by pcos

LaLonnieD24 · 06-08-2003, 08:54 PM

There are [b][b]somany issues with this [b][b]pcos thing, ladies and I know they all depress us. if there is anyone else who feels like responding to my post then feel free and you can always [b][b]pm me anytime.
My problem begins with the constant mood swings and now im starting to harbor angry feelings toward my man and I know hes not deserving of them. There comes those times that I look at me and his sullen expression just ticks me off. Im sure that he would like to understand where I am comming from and he wants to have my back but, hes too self involved sometimes he has all of his own issues and things he wants to deal with.I supposed I cant get mad at that but at the same time I am going thru something too. At times I feel like I can't even talk to him. Sometimes I just want him to hold me and allow me to cry.
I attempted to go outside today take a walk try and do something constructive cook dinner clean the house all of those things that a good woman should do for her man but I feel guilty for some reason and it makes me angry.

sigh I really think i need a head doctor, I think there are so many issues I could work thru if I had one. If anyone has any comments or any advice, let me know...

KatrinaAnne · 06-08-2003, 09:12 PM

~*LaLonnieD24*~

First of all welcome to soulcysters hun! *Hugs* You have just entered a network of wonderful girls who have situations close to yourself. This is a wonderful place and I am sure you will find much comfort here...not to mention...a lot of wonderful, caring friends.

I read your post and it made me very sad. God Bless you hun. I know what you are going through. I have had mild depression/anxiety for about two years now. I have had a struggle with this problem. When you have depression/anxiety you just are not yourself. You do not feel good...you feel hopeless, and you just do not feel like yourseld. Small things that you use to enjoy seem to become a chore and you just feel like you have no energy. Those you love around you...may not completely understand what is going on..especially if they have never really had a bout with depression/anxiety. This is the hard part, because depression is hard to explain. Some people think that depression is just being sad...but it is so much more.

One part of your post said that you wished your boyfriend would just hold you and allow you to cry. Have you told him this hun? Have you sat him down and told him how you feel? If you haven't you should probably do this. It would probably make you feel a lot better...and maybe your boyfriend would begin to understand why things have been a little different lately...and you two could work on this together.

It may be good for you to talk to your doctor about getting on some antidepressants. Depression can be a very terrible thing..and can leave you feeling hopeless. And hopeless as many of us cysters know is a very terrible feeling. I have been put on paxil and it has helped my anxiety and it has made my depression much more tolerable. I know some cysters are on zoloft and have said that it has really helped.

I hope my post has helped you...and I just want you to know you are not alone. I hope you start feeling better hun...and just know there are going to be brighter days ahead...because there will be

We are here for you hun...and once again...welcome to soulcysters!

Your friend and your cyster,
~*Katrina*~

mmandmore · 06-08-2003, 09:50 PM

I haven't been diagnosed with PCOS. I have a dr visit this tuesday (i think) and I plan to talk with him about my symptoms. I don't have ALL the symptoms, but some, so I dont' know if in fact I have PCOS. But one thing I can say is that these past 2-3 months, I have had the major mood swings. Just this past week has been the worst where I don't even want to face the day. I sit there in bed while my two little girls are begging me to get up. Granted my oldest (almost 4) is going through some stages that require major patience for me. I have put on weight of about 10 pounds the past 3-4 months that just depresss me somthing aweful. (I had worked really hard the past year and had lost about 20 lbs.) Just to turn around and put it back on! I took a round of clomid last month and no ovulation and I think it may have added a few pounds, aided in my depression and anxiety. We have been ttc for 10 months now and I just had a laparoscopy surgery on monday to remove cysts. I too have been taking out every frustration on my husband and I feel terrible about it. I wish I had better advice or encouragement for you...just know I"m in the same boat!

LaLonnieD24 · 06-10-2003, 02:47 AM

thank you for your respones...
i have talked to him about how i am feeling and i just dont think that he really gets it yanno? but hes a man i cant expect him to really understand how i feel and hes going thru so much as well
im staarting to think that i should take a vacation and go somewhere and give us some space ill miss him terribly but i dont want to put any addiditonal stress on him i just think i need some air... im having hot flashes ive had so many pg symptoms but im not pg ive even tested im just frustrated
i just wish there was somethng to show for it a baby or a cyst or 2 (i kno bad joke, poor taste) i want so much for myself yanno its just been a struggle.
someone here once told me that pcos is the bond that holds us together, i countered that its also the same one that dystroys us as well...
what i think i will do is put all my energy into this spaday/mary kay party, as u know im a cosmetologist so i think that it would be wonderful for some of us cysters to get together and enjoy ourselves have a vacation to pamper just us... is anyone is interested just hit me up at lalonnied24@soullcysters.com
all the rest of my contact info is on my profile thank you and god bless

mmandmore · 06-10-2003, 09:41 AM

I'm so glad you talked with dh. It does make a difference. I talked with mine last night, well cried to him. I just get so tired of it all. You're totally right. Maybe us soulcysters (though not oficially diagnosed yet) do need a good vacation to take our minds off of it. I think I may mention it to my dh for me and him to get away (would be great during the O time!) I hope you are feeling better. I wanted to ask since your a MK consultant. Can you e-mail me so I can ask you a few questions...