Depression is taking me over

ReflectionXtriad · 04-10-2006, 10:41 AM

I don't want to sound like I am complaining or that I am negative..but I really hope someone could give me advice.. I know everyone one has probably went through similar situations and I was wondering how yours handled it.
For the last 8 months or so.. I haven't been myself..I am not quite sure if the symptoms of PCOS are making me really depressed or if I am depressed and thats manifesting worse symptoms. I just don't know what to do I am at the end of my rope. I sleep 15 hours a day. I never have any energy to go out.Then after all that sleeping I am up all night. I haven't got dressed up in about two months..I have shunned away all my friends..and everything anyone says to me I unintentionally twist what they say.I have severe mood swings i can be laughing one minute then the next crying. I dropped out of high school the previous year because I was in too much physical and mental pain to go through with school. I am supposed to go back in september and finish my senior year..but I really don't think I will be strong enough. My stomach feels like a big giant hollow painful lump of nothing.. When someone touches it i can't feel it..that is probably the most upsetting thing.. I feel like a guy would never want to have me in their life because my stomach swells up and I am always hiding from the world. I just don't feel like my lifehas anything to offer.. I hate feeling this way I feel soo selfish..and deep down I know I am not like that . Everything seems like it's at a dead end I have been taking metformin for a month and a week now and it is just making me feel worse. My parents aren't supportive when it comes to going to a psychiartrist (sp).. That is the last place they would want to send me.. They convince me that I am totally fine when deep down I know something is wrong

I know there are women on here that feel the same.

sorry for going crazy on my emotions there

mandi78 · 04-10-2006, 04:12 PM

Hey, first of all, I'm sorry you are going through all this. Just know that you are not alone. Is there a free health department or clinic in your area? If so, I would recommend going in to see if they can help you out. If nothing else, I would recommend getting on prozac. It has really helped me and if you don't have health insurance, it is by far the cheapest. You should be able to get it for around $10-20 per month. Second, there should be some type of mental health clinic in your area in which you may be able to get free counseling. You are so young to be taken over by this. There is help and hope out there. Maybe try telling your parents that you want to see a counselor (not a psychiatrist as there is a stigma associated with that).....just someone to help you get through what you are dealing with. I hope this helps and that you get to feeling better soon.

Mandi

Toin · 04-11-2006, 03:52 PM

Hi gal.

Listen, I don't want to alarm you, but at the same time, I feel it would be unethical of me to say anything other than what I'm about to write.

Based solely on what you wrote in that paragraph, I would recommend that you find a mental health provider immediately.

What you are battling isn't situational, it's long term. If you haven't gotten dressed in two months, that's seriously non-functioning.

You need to get out of this hole while you still have the energy to climb.

The good news is this... there are tons of people out there who have been where you are and who feel fine now!

You just need to take that first step in finding help.

If all else fails, go to an emergency room. They can prescribe a small amount of anti anxiety medication and then, refer you to an outpatient or inpatient (based on your needs) clinic.

If someone suggests inpatient, please don't be afraid to go. They aren't all sunshine and kittens but they do help stabilize folks who are new to medications and treatment and provide an excellent opportunity to get strong again before facing the world.

Good luck, stay strong

helenhcl · 04-17-2006, 09:59 PM

I wish that your parents could be more supportive, you really need some people in your life to help take care of you, and you need to know that you are not alone. So many PCOS sufferers have these same symptoms. As a teenager I was just in hell....the mood swings turned me into an animal, the depression etc., and the feeling of just being so alone. Please realize that you are not alone, you are just in desperate need of some proper medical advice and treatment!! These problems can all be sorted out, you just need to take the first step and see a physician and hopefully have them take you seriously and start giving you some treatment straight away. There are millions of other sufferers out there and you can find a way to not feel like this, it must have been awful for you the last 2 months, so please do try and see a doctor who can help you out....! Please keep us posted!!