dolphin132

I've been to the boards before but never registered or posted. I used to think I could do this on my own but know after last night I really need some soul cysters.

We've been trying for 7 years now and it wasn't until 3 years ago that I was diagnosed with PCOS. I did the metforim & clomid and other things and lost 30% of my weight but had a doc that kept saying I wasn't losing enough weight or fast enough and I broke down. I have not gone back since.

Now fast forward I gained the weight and am trying to lose it again and not succeeding. I'm afraid to go back to a doctor (different state) and go through the process again...basically given up hope of ever getting pregnant and don't want to go through the mental anguish again, but last night my best friend called to tell me she was pregnant and I felt such lost of never able to have children and I was jealous of her and angry. I know I'm horrible I should be so excited for her, I'm just tired of everyone around me getting pregnant knowing I very well could never be. Anyone else felt this way?

TiggersMom

I do...I know exactly how you feel. My DH and I just moved to Idaho and when we first came here two of the girls were just about to go on LOA because their due dates were fast approaching. Another girl got PG, then one of the guys GF was PG, then another girl was due in 3 months, then pictures started flying. Shortly after another girl came up PG and yet another. Everyone keeps telling me to drink the water-it must be in the water. To top if off since I've moved away from my family two of my family members have come up PG! I have always felt that being a mom is a right of passage for any woman but even more so going through pregnancy. I hear women complain about being PG and "is it over yet" and it drives me nuts!! I wish I could have their problem! It's tough to see everyone around you PG, I feel like i'm being taunted! But don't give up hope, where there's a will, there's a way. I don't have the drive just yet to start excercizing, I only need to lose 30lbs but it seems like so much to me so I've started small and changing my eating habits slowly, now when I feel like munchies I eat asparagus with butter, yes, the butter isn't the best for me but at least it's not a bagel with cream cheese or a greasy fried quesadilla!

Don't lose hope, and prayer is more helpful than you think!