Do you ever read back to your old threads about your angel babies?
I'm just an emotional wreck. I told someone recently i would look up a thread i used to be on and i've been reading some of my old posts...man i was a mess I havent been able to get through any of them without crying
I knew i would never get over losing Aimee and Dana, ever, but you forget sometimes the sheer raw emotion as time goes by. Anyway i havent been able to find the thread i was looking for cuz it was just too hard to keep going, but it made me want to come to give you all a big hug
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i go back and read them sometimes. when i need to cry, when i need to remember. i also have a scrap book that i've yet to put in his last pictures and the goodbye letter i wrote. i collected everything today and put it in a folder and placed the folder in the front cover of the scrapbook. that's all i could do for now.
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Omg, I thought you were going to say the threads weren't there anymore. Reading the posts I wrote after Eric was born makes me sad, but reading the posts I wrote when I was pregnant are even worse. I was so excited and hopeful, but I was still so scared. It breaks my heart to read how much I wanted him, knowing now that I didn't get to keep him. I want to go through and print out everything I wrote and put it in a book with all my other Eric things.
Yeah, been there. I agree that it's normal and healing to do this kind of stuff. It's hard to see it in black and white. And to know how naive we might have been at the time, it's very humbling. (((((Hugs)))))
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I miscarried almost two years ago and not a day goes by that I don't think about that baby. The even harder part is how long we have tried to get pregnant and it hasn't happened. Losing my baby was the hardest thing I have ever been through and when I can't seem to get pregnant agian, I feel like that is the only time I will ever know what it was like to be pregnant. For a long time i thought maybe i could have done something wrong to make my lose my baby. I was in denial though about my PCOS and didn't want to admit I had it. After i miscarried all the symptoms of PCOS i didn't have came flying in! That has made everything worse. I know this is a little off subject but i wanted to let everyone know how nice it is to finally have some one to talk to that knows what it is like to lose a baby! thanks!
I went back a few months ago (when we started really talking about TTC again) & read all of them. I didn't get through the 1st thread & I was bawling! It was healing for me though, to know that I got through it those times & if (G-d forbid) it happened again, I get through it then as well. Fo me, reading them made the decision for us to TTC again a little easier.
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I've not read through them but it's helpful to know I could, if that makes sense, I do look at the pictures we have if I need to and I also have an unfinished scrapbook... one day it'll get done
big hugs ladies
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Do you ever read back to your old threads about your angel babies? 
I told someone recently i would look up a thread i used to be on and i've been reading some of my old posts...man i was a mess 
I havent been able to get through any of them without crying 
I think it's a very natural and healthy (healing) thing to do.
