Does anyone else get terribly depressed..

kittykisses · 07-16-2005, 03:08 AM

around their child's birthday? My DS 1st birthday, didn't phase me at all, maybe because he was still a "baby", but that second birthday and every one since then , has just about killed me! Esp. knowing that he was the one and only child we would ever have. Every birthday meant saying good-bye to a bit of his childhood that we would never get back.

Every year, we have a party at home, just us, and make decorations.Every year , I make a birthday banner to match his party theme and put his age on it and keep it. The year he had a Spongebob party, I made a giant pineapple out of his Kangaroo Klimber and we laughed ourselves sick watching him try to dance to Spongebob songs! Every year we video tape him blowing out candles and opening presents.

I thought I would cry a river after his third birthday when I had to take down all the baby stuff in his room and pack it/give it away. Now, he's turning 7!!! I just can't believe it. I think it esp. bittersweet this year for several reasons.

1. He is definatley leaving early childhood behind! He is 7 and going to 1st grade.
and
2. We are having to start all over w/our memories and keepsakes--a fire in Dec.2004 completely destroyed our house along w/ all our possessions. It didn't just take our home, it took a part of our lives. All our keepsakes: shower momentos, little curls of baby hair, outfits, booties, baby book,his favorite toys and heirloom blankets, pregnancy journal, ultraound scans, birthday videos and posters, and 100's OF BABY PICTURES! Gone up in smoke-literally. It just makes leaving his babyhood so much more painful.

Not looking for a cure, just needed to bend y'er ears for awhile!

heather090702 · 07-16-2005, 02:02 PM

I'm so sorry about the fire, I can't even imagine. Hailey hasn't even turned 1 yet so I can't really tell you I have been there, but I can only imagine how I will be as she gets older. You are doing a wonderful job as a Mommy and your son is growing up and sadly he will continue to grow, but someday hopefully he will bless you with grandbabies and you will be able to enjoy them and make memories with them as well!

Please feel better, you're doing a great job.

Heather

loriparks · 07-16-2005, 02:26 PM

I am so sorry. That would be so horrible to lose all those baby things. A couple of years ago my sister went through the same thing. They had a fire and she lost most of her son and daughter's baby stuff. It was horrible, but I can only imagine what she and you went through. I would be totally devestated if that happened to us. Actually because of that I have often thought to myself, if we should have a fire, his baby album and pictures are one of the first things I will save. (After us of course, and only if I'm able!) My son is only going to be 2 this year, but I get a little sad remembering how small he was and how time fly's by. I would definitely like to have another baby but I was recently diagnosed so I'm scared I won't be able to. Anyway, you have a lot more time to make wonderful memories with your son! I hope you are feeling better soon!

VivC · 07-18-2005, 01:16 PM

Kitty, your fire story scared the heck out of me. Years ago, we had a fire in our apartment building. We lost a lot of stuff due to fire damage and firehose damage (not actual fire). I can't imagine losing irreplaceable items. I have so many mementos of Rivi that I would rather die in the fire than lose them.

I do get depressed on anniversaries that remind me of Rivi. Yes, he died, but usually I can remember him and smile. But anniversaries are so hard.

I think these anniversaries just remind us of what will never be. In my case, I'll never celebrate one with Rivi. In your case, you'll never celebrate one with another child, and it's also a reminder that your baby's not really a baby anymore! Time is flying.

I think you sound perfectly normal. ((Hugs)). You'll get through the day.