Don't know whether to be mad or cry!!

Ladonnaj222 · 09-23-2002, 01:42 AM

I was Dx 2 months ago and no one i have talked to knows anything including the doctor. But my biggest concern is these mood swings. Like today, i have been crying for no reason. And other days i get so angry over little things. I was blessed enought to not have conception difficulties but i have moods swings like you can believe. I would like to one day not freak people out with my Dr. Jekyll and Ms. Hyde impersonation.

I am clueless about anything having to do with this PCOS thing but I'm trying to figure out a few things so that i can be a close to "normal" if that's possible.

RuthQ · 09-23-2002, 09:03 AM

Hi Ladonna. Do I know what you mean or what! I'm a recent PCOS 'grad' too with a past mc (May) and a history since puberty of intense mood swings (I've been known to trash rooms and lash out physically, usually at boyfriends/husbands (!!), but my main symptom is appalling, suicidal depressions and self-hatred- but then sometimes I can be calm, philosophical and OK).

My first fiance left me because he just couldn't cope with my moods and violent attacks, and my husband tends to just stay out of the house when I have PMT!

I see you are an ovulating cyster like me. Are your moods linked to your cycle at all? I am 20 times worse around the times that I am trying to ovulate and/or when I'm premenstrual. I am taking loads of herbs now and doing every alternative therapy I can find - it's costing a fortune but I have left it so late to really deal with all my pent up anger etc, I've just got to do it now. I'm in therapy too.

I think my mood swings are definitely made worse/ brought out by hormones but the underlying problem is childhood abuse and the depressive/defeatist patterns I have developed to live my adult life. I also wonder if that has almost caused my PCOS or exacerbated it (it only developed in the last 5 years, and that is the time I've appeared MORE in 'control' of my disorder- it's like it went more underground, and started to settle on my ovaries..... chinese healers say childhood abuse and hurt will often settle in that area if it isn't dealt with or let out....)

Anyway I'd be interested to hear of any patterns you have detected in your moods....xxx Ruth

Ladonnaj222 · 09-23-2002, 02:06 PM

My mother saw that i was having a really hard time with PCOS and gave me an article about Kat from the paper and it had this site address...i'm so grateful. I want to thank everyone who has responded. RuthQ I am an occasional ovulating cyster at times then i am an overovulating cyster. I had 3 cycles in june which took me to the dr to dicover the PCOS. And i have mood swings daily with or without cycles.

But i am really glad to see so much support in one place. Finally some people who understand.

((((((((((((((((hugs to all)))))))))))))))))

Thank you

Rebecca Penn · 09-23-2002, 02:46 PM

LaDonna,

What a blessing you have finally been DX. Now you know your not crazy. That's how I felt. We are so lucky to live in this era. We have the internet. I also can not find a doctor in my area that knows anything about PCOS. People don't understand the severity of PCOS either, they look at you and because they dont's see 3 heads and 4 arms they think that nothing is wrong with you.

My mood swings are intense also. You can tell yourself that you know it's hormonal and to "get it together" but it doesn't stop the rage. My husband says " PCOS is not an excuse for abuse"

When I was first DX 4 years ago, after 20 years of symptoms. I went to all of the web sites to gather as much info as I could. I attended a medical symposium in San Fransisco. 4 years ago there were no books on the subject. Now there are serveral to choose from.

I took the herbs, they were no help. Then I started a low carb way of eating. I am a whole new person!!! So many of my symptoms are gone. And most important my periods are now regular and no more moods including depression. I have 1 day of slight mood change and food craving and then the next day or two I start my period. It's amazing. I highly recommend it. You have no idea how wonderful it feels to feel normal.

I kind of envy where you are right now in your journey. When you first find out you have PCOS. You become so focused and driven to get healthy now that you know what you are dealing with. Everything is new and you can take back the control over your life.

You will find so many answers here. Welcome and good luck

Rebecca

helenquinn · 09-23-2002, 03:58 PM

Ladonna,

welcome on board and this site is the best thing Ive discovered and I wished I found it sooner!

I can empathise with the mood swings, I dont know how Tony puts up with me! But Im so glad at least I have something to blame it on.

Hope to meet you in the chat room sometime

Helen

CTCyster · 09-23-2002, 04:49 PM

to SoulCysters, LaDonna!!

I have had horrible mood swings too- but I am much better than I used to be- now that a lot of my PCOS symptoms are being treated.

Are you seeing a therapist to help deal with your mood problems? Sometimes just talking things out in therapy can really help make you feel "less out of control"- especially if/when you find out there is a "trigger" that you can work on controlling, etc. Do you take any meds? If you do, maybe the dosages need to be adjusted?? I am by no means an expert on this- just throwing out idea here.

Hang in there!

*Aimee*